In Her Twenties

schedule

2012-01-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

28 Jan - pathology

29 Jan - AJL 26 sobs takleh nak live streaming tgk lagu beribu sesalan ngan aizat ngan faizal tahir

30 Jan - microbiology

1 feb - pharmacology

2 feb - birthday victoria f(x) my forever bias

3 feb - dental materials

4 feb - packing barang nak balik n shopping segala mak nenek barang org pesan.

5 feb - train ke Kochin

6 feb - insyaAllah sampai Malaysia terchenta ewah!

may Allah ease our journey. amin.

smooches~

my heart

2012-01-14T03:21:00.003+08:00

tengok balik post lepas, humangaihh emonya parihana! itu masa perasaan hati tak dapat ditahan-tahan dan takde tempat nak meluahkan perasaan. rasa tak sanggup nak bebankan orang lain dgn masalah peribadi yg parihana cari pasal. so boleh cerita kat orang lain a lil bit here and there only. full story, only parihana knows.

perasaan manusia senang berubah, susah diramal. ada satu fasa tiba2 rasa benci dgn semua orang, even bestfriend terkena tempias padahal tak salah apa2 pun. dah cuba tahan diri, tahan perasaan tapi susah. sebabnya takut kalau pendam jadi lagi teruk. senang cerita, tak payah cakap dgn orang dan duduk dlm bilik diam2. tak pun lari pusing endpoint banyak2 kali. bila mengah otak tak mampu nak fikir soal hati perasaan ni.

nak cepat2 tinggalkan fasa ni tapi so far parihana selesa begini which is worse sebab parihana menyeksa orang lain. i'm being selfish for my own comfort. tapi parihana fikir, 'sapa yg nak sayang diri aku kalau bukan aku sendiri', 'kenapa nak lebihkan fikir psl perasaan org lain?' jadinya parihana telah menjadi sungguh mementingkan diri dan meninggalkan seseorang terkapai-kapai mencari jawapan.

tipu kalau kata tak rasa bersalah. rasa bersalah tahap mega tahu sebabnya parihana sendiri penah rasa situasi digantung tak bertali. very agonizing tapi pegi buat jugak kat orang tu. orang tu sungguh sabar menunggu parihana berlalu drp fasa mengong ini. terharu jugakla tapi hati masih keras, masih mahu bebas.

sungguh, kalaulah hati manusia yg sedang kecamuk boleh diatur, disusun balik elok2 macam susun buku kat rak library, alangkah mudahnya. dah banyak kali cuba tenangkan diri, cari mana jln penyelesaian, tapi so far masih buntu. jd parihana jd pengecut, lari drp situasi. menyibukkan diri dgn macam2 hal sbb nak lupakan masalah. tapi smpai bila harus mcmni.... =(

kepada orang tu, terima kasih kerana masih menunggu, menanti dgn penuh sabar. i'll come back to you. sekarang parihana hanya mau hidup dgn gembira and enjoy apa yg ada dlm hidupnya.

smooches~

knowing

2012-01-08T17:10:00.002+08:00

i don't know what is right for me anymore. everything seems blur, undecided. my feelings have gone haywired. i can't seem to focus. my heart can't take it anymore. i need confirmation. i want my comfort zone back. this is so tiring. i don't want to live like this. i want to be ignorant as i successfully did before. why human feelings are so complicated? can't u just say what u wanna say instead of hanging me like this. why do you put ego ahead of everything. i'm seriously tired. being unable to say my heart out make it worse. i give up.

2011

2012-01-02T01:57:00.014+08:00

2011 was a good year, filled with many first-time moments which gave me the chance to explore whatever that were more to life other than studying.

awesome year kicked off with our 2-weeks India trip in February! err January bosan, penuh dgn class tests and block exam.

dream came true. Taj Mahal right in front of my eyes.

paragliding for the first time. didn't have the gut to try it during our Langkawi trip.

again, dream came true nak main salji.

skiing =) walaupun just ski sikit2 je kat bahagian bawah bukit.

MSP presentation. the preparation period was hellish but all the hardwork paid off. ^_^

in July, we had our first university examination. that was the toughest 3 weeks of 2011 for me. the accumulated stress was unbearable. i'm really grateful i managed to pass the agonizing period without killing somebody. harhar.

back in Malaysia on August, reunion with my beloved kapaxians.

Aidilfitri 2011 with family. tak merasa la nak raya di perantauan.

raya trip with KMS peeps and reunion with Mcdee!

21st birthday, celebrated it with my awesome friends ^_^

started to work like a real dentist during conservative dentistry practicals. gloves, mouth mask, goggle are mandatory and sgtla merimaskan.

Kapu beach with usrahmate.

one of my happiest moment ^_^

i love my 2011. hopefully 2012 will be better.

smooches~

futsal

2011-12-24T22:49:00.004+08:00

last year

this year

teringin nak belajar main futsal betul2 so that boleh main dgn hebatnya, bukan main sepak aje mcm game interbatch aritu.

smooches~

netball

2011-12-17T02:48:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna miss this team T___T

walaupun menang sekali je, we always support each other no matter what.

smooches~

my bro

2011-12-14T01:34:00.003+08:00

mursyid drew this himself out of boredom duduk kat rumah tunggu result PMR keluar. He uploaded it on fb and tagged me! i'm glad that we share the same interest in punkrock music. sebab yang lain tu dy minat rock kapak, saya minat korean songs. He always said that American Idiot is the best album produced by Green Day, album yg latest suma mcm kureng sikit which i totally agree. hehe.

sama gila kan my bro lukis!

smooches~

weird

2011-12-01T14:06:00.001+08:00

smooches~

kids on the block dan musibah

2011-11-29T00:59:00.002+08:00

sebab kami masih kanak-kanak dan kami sudah di block kedua, tahun kedua BDS. macam tak caya! rasa mcm baru haritu punggah beg kat LCCT sebab lebih 30kg bawak stok makanan mai datang Manipal.

anyhoo, malam ini sungguh gumbira sebab exam block 1 baru melabuhkan tirainya. eceyh. nasib baik exam penutup (Dental Material) tak susah sangat tapi tak senang jugak sebab ade soalan yg saye hentam jawab.

overall saya rasa exam block 1 sungguh mengecewakan. sedih dgn diri sendiri yg tak manfaatkan masa betul2. boleh rasa perbezaan belajar masa Year 1 dgn Year 2 ni. mentang2 dah ada pengalaman, jadi usaha diberi tak cukup 100%. baca pun lambat2, tgk laptop je lebih tapi kalau tak tengok laptop nnt mata cepat ngantuk pulak. haih lagi sedih sbb rasa kebergantungan hidup disandarkan kpd hiburan dlm laptop.

paling sedih - selepas jawab paper Pharmacology sebabnya masuk dewan exam dgn rasa tak bersedia dan tak habis baca. padahal kalau manfaatkan betul sehari suntuk + satu malam tu sempat je nk baca semua. sudahnya jawab macam apa je. p baca dgn separuh hati, maka separuh markahlah dpt jawabnya. tu pn kalau lecturer baik nak bagi markah.

pengajaran yg saya dpt drp Year 1 : jangan lebihkan satu subjek drp subjek2 yang lain dan jgn over-confident bila rasa boleh jawab exam. less expectation, less disappointment, no?

kisahnya, bagi saya masa Year 1 University exam paper Biochemistry adalah paper yg paling senang, essay dan MTF. rasa macam sangat yakin boleh score tinggi. bila lecturer tanya, dan even Dean MMMC tanya, penuh confident saya cakap paper Biochem paling senang. target saya time tu : Best Student in Biochemistry. memang saya aim satu tu je. subjek lain saya tak kisah. saya dh memang maintain markah drp Block 1 semata-mata untuk award tu. nampak sungguh niat belajar dah lari di situ.

sebelum pergi distinction viva untuk Biochem (last stage untuk dpt Distinction) , tengahari tu saya study segala handout yg ada, baca sekali imbas nak refresh balik memory. tapi dlm byk2 handout tu, satu handout pasal Vitamin K saya terlupa nak baca. dah ingat dah kena baca, tapi taktau kenapa last2 saya tak baca jugak. saya even tak jumpa pun handout tu kat mana.

dan bila saya masuk bilik untuk di-viva, soalan pasal Vitamin K adalah soalan utama viva saya di samping soalan2 lain. even basic soalan dy saya tak boleh jawab. lagi sedih, kena gelak dgn interviewer sebab taktau simbol lain untuk gamma. even soalan lain saya boleh jawab, tapi semua soalan berkaitan dgn Vitamin K mmg saya sangkut. tapi harapan saya masih tinggi, saya sangat percaya kpd markah teori saya dan berharap soalan2 lain yg saya berjaya jawab akan compensate soalan Vitamin K tu.

tapi saya silap.

bila results keluar online, otak saya mengambil proses yg agak lama bila mata saya melihat satu-satunya subjek yg saya tak dapat Distinction ialah Biochemistry. subjek2 lain yg saya dah memang putus harap pulak yg dapat. walaupun masih bersyukur atas rezeki yg diberi, tapi ralat hati memang takleh nak sorok. sepanjang 5 minggu baki cuti saya di Malaysia setiap malam sebelum tido saya akan berasa frustrated dan mengulang ayat "kalaulah aku baca handout Vitamin K tu''. Tiap-tiap malam. tahap kecewa yg taktau nak cakap mcm mana.

harga yg perlu dibayar bila harapan terlalu tinggi.

dan bila dapat full result beserta markah, saya jadi lagi terkejut sebab subjek yg saya agung-agungkan tula yg saya dapat markah rendah compared to Anatomy dan Physiology. sumpah terkejut sampai rasa mcm nak pergi check paper balik. rasa mcm tak boleh terima. markah yg saya expect jauh sama sekali.

balik tu saya fikir, ada sebab Allah tak bagi saya distinction Biochem. mungkin kalau saya dpt, saya akn bertambah yakin dan lupa semua ilmu tu dtg drp-Nya. saya akan bertambah riak. saya akan lupa diri dan mule mengurangkan usaha belajar. jadinya setiap kali saya sedih teringat result tu, saya akan ingat itu tanda Allah sayangkan saya. Allah taknak saya jadi lebih sesat. Allah nak saya berusaha lebih lagi.

jadi, terima kasih Allah dan thanks to handout Vitamin K kerana telah menghilangkan diri pada hari viva itu =)

perasaan ni dtg balik sebab haritu kakak usrah ada share pasal hikmah musibah. salah satunya untuk menguji sejauh mana pergantungan diri kita kpd Allah dan sejauh mana tahap keredhaan diri kita kpd ujian2 Allah. jadinya hati akan bertambah tenang bila semua benda kita trace balik kpd Allah.

harap2 lepas ni akan mampu terus bersabar menghadapi apa jua musibah, contohnya dibahan rakan2 dgn benda yg tak betoi hihihihi =P

marilah bersemangat menghadapi Block 2! *semoga tak hangat-hangat tahi ayam* walaupun agak lemah lutut sebab esok ada practical Microbiology T____T. go away negative vibes!! shoooh shoooh!

smooches~

awak yg pelik

2011-11-18T01:02:00.004+08:00

sebab awak boleh terima saya seadanya. saya sendiri tak mampu terima diri saya apa adanya.

u said the nerd in me is attractive (bahaha) but now this nerdiness is keeping me away from you for a while.

patience is a virtue =)

so not ready for block 1 exam. hate this.

-pic from tumblr-

smooches~

mira

2011-11-02T02:49:00.003+08:00

happy birthday Mira!!!

rindunya zaman karok kat SP and makan2 kat CP and jalan kaki p pasar malam ampangan (walopun aku p 2 kali je hihi)

tahun depan wajib jumpa wokey kalau tak no kain sari for you! hahaha =P

love u Mira, jaga diri baik2 noo kat UK sana. ^__^

p/s : Mcdee, mira lagi pervert drp aku okay. haha

smooches~

doploh satu

2011-11-01T02:50:00.013+08:00

tepat kul 12 waktu Malaysia ada manusia nyanyi lagu happy birthday dgn tak sedapnya from Malaysia. hihi ada org tu kecewa tak dpt jd org first yg wish sebab kawan2 from aussie dah wish dulu kat fb. nevermind, u're the last to wish me sebelum masuk 29th Oct. =)

tepat pukul 12 waktu Malaysia jugak mak abah hantar mesej menyentuh jiwa, rasa nak leleh-leleh tapi ditahan sebab tamau sedih malam birthday. sedih sebab fikir dah lama tak sambut birthday ngan family sendiri sebab drp form 1 dok hostel and birthday jarang jatuh hari cuti.

tepat pukul 12 waktu India ada manusia tu wish lagi sekali selepas 3 jam menemani malam birthday girl yg sepi. layan perasaan dgr bunga api n mercun pompampom perasan orang main untuk celebrate birthday dia. rasa macam artis sekejap.

bangun esok pagi tgk ada 2 mesej masuk from Najoo and DJ. sedih. makin tua makin sikit dpt mesej. semua salah facebook. p dapur Myro dah masak breakfast egg sandwich and dua2 housemates tersayang wish birthday peluk cium apa semua.

pegi kelas, duduk kat tempat skema sakit leher, bukak inbox, air mata meleleh. sebab? TAKTAU. sumpah taktau. memang perangai fanarosli cepat sensitip bila dtg hari2 penting dlm hidup dy. perasaan yg taktau nk explain mcmn kat orang. pastu classmates wish n nyanyi lagu birthday pun tak mampu nak ckp thank you properly sebab hati kacau bilau. urgh menciii.

mintak maaf kawan2 kerana menyusahkan hati anda semua.

balik rumah, tido. bangun, dah normal. petang tu Nabilah belanja makan eskem Baskin walaupun belum 31st. dinner malam tu, ada suprise chocolate cake Nabilah buat untuk saye n Syasya buat topping dy. ^__^ sedap gila tauuu sampai saya tak kisah diet saya hancur hehe.

tadaa! nampak tak word 'Fana' tu? sebenanye saja ngade2 mintak Nabilah buat kek special for my birthday, tp tak sangke dy buat betoi2. hihi thanks my poreber partner!

duckie no. 1 and card from Myra. dah agak dah dy akan beli hadiah2 yg tak semenggah sebab dy dah tak innocent skrg ni. hehe. but the words in her card that hit me. i'll try to change okay bebeh! =)

ini memang stail Miyn, bagi hadiah ada muka dy sendiri. hehe. saye anggap dy masak chicken chop sedap gilos aritu sebagai meraikan birthday saya boleh tak? hihi

blouse and card from Dawa n Aien. =)

a gigantic mug, luggage tag and card from Syasya. rasanya dy bagi tag tu sebab haritu mcm excited tgk dy pakai tag tu jadi keychain. ngeh3 jakun.

a nerd domo pencilcase from Najo and Myro. tak seswai langsung dgn personality dan gaya hidup saya yg glamer dan chic. kihkihkih.

hadiah yg paling berani sekali from Naurah. Duckie no. 2 berjoget buat bising tarik perhatian sume org. bila pegang kepala dy masa tgh joget nnt dy quackquackquack dgn sgt bising. tapi sgt menghiburkan hati ^_^ thanks for the bangle and card too.

Duckie no. 3 from Kappa dibeli depan mata birthday girl walaupun dihalang berkali-kali. menjadi mainan Kappa selam sebulan, baru dipasskan kpd birthday girl. =_='' tapi seronok main picit2 dy bila stress.

cheers to my very first Korean album!! Super Junior Mr. Simple album version B. terlompat2 dapat hadiah ni from Kappa sebab mcm tak percaya! walaupun dh 3 tahun jadi K-pop fan, tapi tak pernah lagi sampai beli album sebab takde duit *sobs*

dlm album tu ada photo album *sukasuka!* dapat phototcard Siwon, kalau Mira or Mcdee yg dpt mesti diorg lagi suka.

my anchovy! teeheeheee ^_^

and thanks so much to Mcdee, Myra and Miyn (3M) for the blogposts. jugak kepada syatees mokmok sebab sanggup call from aussie sana. nak menyamar buat suara tempe padahal suara ko tu nyaring cam kucing. haha. thanks also for all the birthday wishes dlm apa jua cara; wish depan2/mesej/nyanyi lagu birthday/ fb/twitter.

menyesal moody di pagi birthday bila Allah kurniakan saya kawan2 yg mampu menyempurnakan birthday saya yg ke-21. sayang semua!

salah satu tanda dah tua: malas nak reply wish birthday satu persatu kat fb.

p/s : panjang nak mampus post birthday ni. but thats because i'm happy and in the mood. =) lepas ni lagi forever nak update.

smooches~

myroro

2011-10-06T03:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MYRAJEMI!!

pembonceng setia yang tak berapa nak innocent dah sekarang ni. semoga sentiasa mendapat petunjuk-Nya dan dijauhkan drp any negative vibes termasuk yg nakal-nakal comel mcm aku teeheeeheee.

jom build up some muscles, kita hapuskan lemak2 ayam itu weeheeheeeee.

don't just count your years, make your years count. =)

*sorry guna gambar lama, zaman aku still kurus hehe*

smooches~

my second year

2011-09-29T02:04:00.007+08:00

so far so good. nothing interesting. lots and lots of practical. sakit pinggang tangan lenguh. less theory class (yeay?). still sleepy in class. cooking our own food everyday *proud*.

first 2 pictures are the cavity preparation in conservative dentistry, belajar korek gigi kapur untuk bubuh amalgam/resin bila gigi korang kena caries atau mcm2 penyakit sebab pemalas berus gigi. eh terlebih ganas gosok gigi pun boleh berlubang jugak.

last 3 pictures are the arrangement of artificial teeth for edentulous denture in prosthodontics. sakit jiwa nak susun bagi betul2 accurate.

sorry for the nerdy update walaupun hasil tangan tak cantik mana. babai!

smooches~

le picnic

2011-09-08T23:27:00.005+08:00

we had our first picnic together yesterday! ^_^ sebenarnya teringin sgt nk p tgk and jalan2 kat laut dgn bf tapi ipoh agak jauh dari laut, so p cari waterfall terdekat jela, tempat saye selalu p dgn family bile teringin nak mandi air terjun.

benda paling best adalah bf memasak bekalan untuk picnic kami! he volunteered, as a gift for me katenye. so takkan nak tolak kan nyeh3.

simple tapi sedap! tambah lagi bila makan pas kuar drp air sungai yg sejuk mcm ais.

ulu chepor ni still bersih macam masa saye dtg zaman hingusan dulu. tgk pilih tempat cetek aje sebab the gf tak pandai berenang or menyelam. the bf keciwa. ngeh3 sorryyyy.

pas dah puas dok berendam dalam air sungai ais, lari p jusco pekena steamboat johnny's pastu karok 2 jam. semua lagu dipilih adalah lagu yg strain-kan vocal cords.

anyhoo, i'm loving the day and looking forwards for more dates outside out shopping complex. bosan dah 4 tahun asek date kat shopping mall.

smooches~

aidilfitri 2011

2011-09-01T20:55:00.005+08:00

selamat hari raya aidilfitri! maaf zahir batin!

tahun ni saya dpt buah kuih raya sendiri sebab mak dh beli oven! yeay! buat 2 jenis je pun, honey cornflakes and almond london.

tahun ni sama mcm tahun lepas, beraya kat rumah sendiri je, petang tu balik kampung belah mak sebab nak lawat kubuh arwah tok and p jalan2 rumah mak sedara. cadangnya raya ke2 nak balik n9 kampung abah tapi tiba2 last minit tak jadi.

jadinya dah 2 hari saya dok rumah tak keluar g mana2 just terima tetamu je and jadi tukang hidang n tukang basuh pinggan. student mak datang berduyun-duyun hueh bestnya jadi cikgu anak murid still datang rumah even dah keluar sekolah.

raya ke5 ni nak keluar p openhouse kawan2 bainun, 6hb kena p seremban beraya rumah cikgu2 KMS, 7hb maksu punya openhouse, 8hb jumpa bf, 9hb openhouse sendiri sempena birthday hijjaz. ahh i love my raya schedule! teeheeheee ^_^

have a blessful raya semua orang! =)

smooches~

our moments

2011-08-16T02:11:00.006+08:00

iftar =) licin habis suma walaupun makan berdua je.

ok sibok jap hehe

strudel and ice cream =D

i had a great time. mula2 jumpa awkward gila taktau nak cakap apa. malu2 kucing sengih menyeringai je lol. thanks teman shopping and tolong ikat ribbon.

thanks kak shikin for recommending the place!

smooches~

update

2011-08-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

salam semua! i'm back home for almost a week already. tapi bosannyaaaa dok sorang2 kat rumah adik2 semua p sekolah sampai petang pastu ade tusyen pulak malam2 haih nak ajak p mcD drive thru pun susah.

naseb bek ade stok cter korea and jepun buat peneman hari2ku yg sepi. so far dah habehkan 3 cerita : baby-faced detective shibata, my princess and 49 days. cerita shibata tu best sebab hero dy cute sangat and ade buchou (fujiki naohito, my second boypren ehem) and cerita dy pun standard cerita jepunla, setiap kes ade moral and nilai2 murni yang harus dicungkil oelh para penonton sekalian.

cerita 49 days telah mengorbankan air mata saya sebanyak berliter2 sebab jalan cerita yg meruntun hati dan perasaan. tapi apa kes ending dy memedihkan ulu hati orang je. sakit jiwa aku nanges 20 episodes tup tup takdak happy ending pun. sobs selalunya bile tgk cter korea i akan skip2 part yg drag panjang berjela tp cter tu takleh nk skip sgt kalau tak nanti hilang pemahaman akan jalan cerita yg complicated itu.

saya suka my princess!! tapi isu kerajaan korea, blue house and isu puteri2 diraja ni semua i skip hehee tgk part best2 je. song seung hun comelnye dlm cter ni teehee before ni tak rasa dy hensem tapi tiba2 du jadi hensem dlm cter ni. penat dah gigit bantal golek2 atas katil sebab moment2 cheesy tp rumentik dlm cter ni hehe. jadila buat hiburan kan.

oh btw sepanjang balik rumah ni saya tak penah lagi p bazar ramadhan sebab mak rajin bebenor masak smpai penuh meja. even shopping2 kat ipoh pun tak p lagi. rasa lg best dok rumah kacau adik buat keje sekolah. mood nk shopping tak dtg lagi. dlm purse pun ade duit rupee je haha punya malas nk keluar tukar. tapi kena paksa diri keluar jugak sebab hadiah org tu tak beli lagi padahal next week dah nak jumpa ohh cuakkkkk. takde idea nak buat apa lagi untuk dy. dy dah demand masak itu ini. bilalaa dy nak sedar gf dy ni tak pandai masak.

results first year dah keluar. although i'm grateful, i can't hide my frustration. tapi nk buat mcmn kan, sampai mati pun aku akan ingat simbol gamma tu hehe.

ok dah nk p mandi. pasni sambung city hunter pulak.

smooches~

home!

2011-08-05T23:54:00.002+08:00

finally, i've done with first year of bachelor of dental science! ^___^ 4 more years to go though T_T anyhoo, i'm done with all the exams, practicals and distinction viva. regarding the viva, i'm not really confident but i've tried my best, so tawakkal jelah yg termampu skrg. tp still macam tak percaya! dah setahun dok kat india ni! dalam masa setahun ni satu pokok cili boleh mengeluarkan hasil sebanyak 73 kali! wow!

oo yeah no more carving! will miss it though. carving tooth from a wax block was fun but the pressure that came from the lecturer was truly a burden. mm okaylaa maybe not a burden tapi memang buat orang stress! sakit jiwa setiap kali nak pergi lab sebab takut kena condemn macam2. carve gigi manusia macam gigi buaya la, gigi harimau la, tu belum masuk part kena gelak kihkihkih dgn lecturer dan kita hanya mampu terkulat-kulat lalu senyum kambing sebab nak cover malu.

tapi second year still tak boleh lari from prosthodontics T__T so expect a lot of the-whine-of -the-prostho-class posts after this. kena kuat semangat walaupun kena buat 7 cycle of the same procedure to make an edentulous denture (gigi palsu untuk org tak bergigi langsung) over a year.

bye2 anatomy, physiology and biochemistry!! i'll only miss anatomy part head and neck excluding brain. i won't miss learning thorax hehe sebab takde kaitan ngan dentist kot. i'll miss biochemistry a lot but kat physiology takdak apa2 perasaan. bese2 je.

second year offers general pathology, microbiology, pharmacology and dental materials for us to drown ourselves with. semua subject pun mcm killer jadi harapnya senior ade tinggalkan byk nota2 hebat untuk kitorg especially dental materials. i don't even know what i'm learning for the past 11 months. sad tapi nanti2la risau. yg penting nak balik malaysia dulu jumpa family pastu makan sedap. teehee.

i'm starting my journey going back home tomorrow!! firstly the 2 hour journey with car from manipal to mangalore, then the 12 hours train from mangalore to bangalore and finally a flight to malaysia!!! weehooooo!!

smooches~

hai august

2011-08-01T20:49:00.002+08:00

august dah rupanya.

selamat menyambut ramadhan kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat. dpt jugaklah merasa pengalaman bepuasa di bumi orang walaupun hanya untuk seminggu. tak rasa apa2 yang lain sgt, mungkin sebab sibuk prepare untuk practical exam. tapi td first sahur dah terkorban sebab terlambat bangun. uhuk dah semangat dah nk makan cornflakes dgn susu. nak berbuke pun tak excited sgt sebabnya sampai saat saye menaip ni saye taktau nak berbuke ape. rase sunyila pulak dok dlm bilik sensorang menghadap buku physiology.

rasa rindu suasana berbuka ramai2 zaman 7 tahun duduk kat hostel. walaupun kadang2 mknn tak sesedap mcm kat rumah, tapi the atmosphere of berbuka dgn kawan2 cured it all. tak payah pening2 nak makan apa mlm ni, just p dewan selera, semua dah ade. kalau rajin p bazar ramadhan beli lauk extra. penah sekali tu termenangis sebab sayu tgk lauk berbuka ala kadar yg DS bagi sedangkan family kat rumah kemain seronok makan mewah2. haha zaman leleh.

kejam sungguh orang2 yg upload gamba makanan macam2 kat facebook. saliva dah accumulate, hanya mampu menelan sahaja T___T. one more week to home. tak sabar!

smooches~

half more

2011-07-25T15:20:00.003+08:00

salam readers. dah lama nak tulis blog sebenarnya tapi takdak modal sebab tulis mesti akan cakap pasai exam. and kali ni memang saya nk ckp pasai exam pun. hehe. sebabnya tadi exam theory dah habis. yeayyy!! semua paper not badla kecuali killer paper essay dental anatomy. keluar soalan yg tak pernah belajar sebelum ni.

'describe chewing cycle.'

garu2 kepala penat teran otak pikir bila masa aku belajar cycle ni? jadinya td saya telah membuat cycle sendiri untuk menghiburkan hati tuan pemeriksa. sile memberi saya sedikit markah kesian pls.

so part theory dah langsai, tinggal part practical lagi seminggu. and kalau ade rezeki dpt distinction, kena p distinction viva. ohh byk benoo peringkatnya nak dpt distinction ni. kena kuat semangat walaupun hari2 menghitung hari nak balik malaysia.

tadi ade org kejam p post gamba kerang rebus kat facebook T___T naseb bek lagi 2 minggu je nak sampai Malaysia. sobs

musim exam ni sangat horror tgk lantai bilik sendiri sebabnya ade byk gila protein-protein yg halus berwarna hitam berterabur kat sana sini. lama2 mau botak kepala sebab exam.

btw, sleep wake cycle mmg dah terpusing 360 darjah. balik Malaysia nnt baru betulkan.

mmm ape lagi ek nak cerita...oh saye ade usrah petang ni jadinya saye ingat nk tido jap tapi tgk2 sikit lagi kena p jumpe mentor. jgn dy tanye psl chewing cycle lagi sudah.

taktaula nak cerita pasal apa lagi. oh saye tau saye lmbt, tapi terima kasih kepada video2 nigahiga yg menemani malam2 saya study. =)

smooches~

SKPPH

2011-07-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

ada kawan tag gambar masa zaman darjah satu kat fb tadi. ntah mcmn dy boleh jumpa gambar drp zaman 1997 entah. ni gamba kelas saya, 1 dinamik hihihihi kalau hebat cuba teka which one is me? tgkla zaman darjah 1, duduk atas kerusi pun kaki tergantung lagi tak cecah tanah hahaha yep i'm the one sitting on the chair on the right side. mata and dahi berkerut habeh sebab panas sgt kot time ni. sebabnya saya dpt duduk atas kerusi? sebab masa ni saya ketua darjah kot? hoho hebatnya =P fyi cikgu yg pakai tudung kuning tu is mak saya cikgu hatimah, cikgu BM paling garang dlm kelas asek torture anak sendiri je T_T

skrg semua pun dah besar panjang bwak haluan masing2. ade sorg classmate pompuan saya kat atas baru kawen cuti bulan 5 aritu.

smooches~

first week of study leave...

2011-07-08T00:29:00.002+08:00

.....was a total mess. my life has turned upside down. i slept from 6am in the morning till 12 noon and woke up to study from 3 pm in the evening until 5 am in the morning. this is crazy. i've tried to change my study style by sleeping early, but then i still woke up at noon no matter how hard i pushed myself to get up. T___T

the momentum is just not there and its only 2 weeks left to final exam. what should i doooooooo???? one day i was all enthusiastic to study and finished the portion quickly but another day i was a lazy snorlax, just laying on my cozy bed sleeping like there's no tomorrow.

bakal balik malaysia dgn badan gempal dan mata panda.

smooches~

couple song

2011-07-01T02:57:00.002+08:00

bf dok bagi aku dgr lagu price tag cover by maddi jane. pas dengar, nk bagi mcm comment mcm taktau apa2 sebab telinga dah lama tak dgr lagu english. jadinya boleh ckp lgu tu bese2 aje.

tadi tertengok video lagu Couple Song ni by Ra.D and Kelley. mula2 tengok apsal dua ekor ni nyanyi tersengih2 malu-malu kucing atas pentas pastu baru tau rupanya si Kelley ni wife dy. lagu ni lagu ciptaan si suami sendiri khas untuk hubungan diorg =)

translation:

(Ra.D) She looks pretty from the front, but she also looks pretty from the side
Sometimes, I get excited just by looking at her back view and I secretly want to hold her tight
She is so so pretty, her sweet heart is also very pretty
So pretty like this, I am glad that she is my girlfriend

(Ra.D) I love you

(Kelley) I love you

(Ra.D & Kelley) I love you. I don’t think I can live even one day without you.

(Ra.D) She is so pretty

(Kelley) He is so handsome

(Ra.D & Kelley) I confess to her/him daily. I don’t think I can live even one day without you.

(Kelley) He looks handsome from the front, but he also looks handsome from the side
Sometimes, I get excited just by looking at his back view and I secretly want to hold him tight
He is so so handsome, his sweet heart is also very handsome.
So handsome like this, I am glad that he is my boyfriend

(Ra.D) I love you

(Kelley) I love you

(Ra.D & Kelley) I love you. I don’t think I can live even one day without you.

(Ra.D) So pretty

(Kelley) So handsome

(Ra.D & Kelley) I confess to her/him daily. I don’t think I can live even one day without you.

(Ra.D & Kelley) I don’t think I can live one day without seeing her/him.

(Ra.D) I can`t live without you girl

(Kelley) I can`t live without you boy

(Ra.D & Kelley) I don’t think I can live one day without seeing her/him.

(Kelley) I can`t live without you boy (I can’t live without you…)

(Ra.D) I can`t imagine life without your love

(Ra.D) I love you

(Kelley) I love you

(Ra.D & Kelley) I love you. I don’t think I can live one day without you (I can’t live without you)

(Ra.D) So pretty

(Kelley) So handsome

(Ra.D & Kelley) I confess to her/him daily. I don’t think I can live even one day without you.

so sweet laki bini menyanyi sambil looking into each other eyes. ^___^

*momentum study tak sampai lagi sobs*

smooches~

final

2011-06-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

block 4 dah habis petang tadi. weeeee. >_< alhamdullilah setahun ni tak penah ponteng kelas walaupun penah sekali terbabas dtg lambat masa kelas anatomy naseb bek lecturer tu baik bagi masuk.

pasal exam block 4, ni kali pertama dlm hidup saya tido pukul 5 pagi seminggu berturut-turut. sebab block ni paling hampeh cara belajar, jadinya study last minute dgn nota berteraburnye lagi, memang terpaksa stay up sampai lebam biji mata. esok pagi g jawab exam dgn mata merah n kepala pening. sungguh tak sihat dan menyeksakan.

sebelum ni exam block2 lain walaupun banyak benda nak baca, tp takdela smpai tido pukul 5 pagi. at least kul 2.30 mcmtu dah lelap. sedih dgn diri sendiri. orang lain makin lama makin bagus, diri sendiri makin lama makin tak berdisiplin mase belajar.

physiology n biochemistry bolehla jawab, anatomy mcm susah sikit dan yg paling dasat tak lain tak bukan dental anatomy. takmau ckp dah psl paper exam. babai.

jadinya lepas ni ada 3 minggu study leave untuk final university exam. kena start susun jadual, kalau tak nnt jd cam zombie lagi. takut sgt bila pk kena baca anatomy n dental anatomy drp block 1. mau botak kepala mase balik malaysia nnt. T__T

tak sabar nak balik Malaysia!

smooches~

first year

2011-06-21T16:57:00.000+08:00

classes for my first year dentistry course officially finished today! weehoo no more classes but more n more examintaions instead T__T. will turn into a zombie in few weeks to come. maybe i'll go back to Malaysia with a panda eyebag, an unhealthy body bersalutkan lipid sebab makan benda tak sihat sepanjang minggu exam n also a tak betul mind. see, my english broken already, belum start exam lagi tu. sigh. lets do the best! fighting!

musim2 nak exam ni emosi agak tak menentu. kejap happy, happy melampau, sedih, termenung n boleh menangis tiba2. semoga sabar semuanya menghadapi minggu2 akan dtg.

smooches~

keep holding on

2011-06-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

khas untuk bf yg selalu kena ignore minggu ni, i'm so sorry =) i cant seem to properly express my feelings towards you, so here goes a song for you. the lyrics are exactly what i want to say to you.

i love you.

smooches~

i'm a hungry girl

2011-06-15T04:34:00.002+08:00

tengah2 malam lepas lukis 8 slides Dental Histology memang terasa lapar walaupun dah membaham Subway after maghrib td. sebenarnya bosab, tak boleh nak tido. jadi bukak blogspot membebel sorang2. jadinya post ini adalah post random dan merapu.

banyak benda yg jadi dlm minggu ni yang mengubah pandangan saya dalam melihat sesuatu situasi. bila saya diam, maksudnya sama ada saya tgh marah, saya tgh berfikir, saya tgh runsing, saya tgh hafal nota biochem, atau mungkin saya hanya ngada2 takmau cakap dgn sapa2 *dramaqueen*

bila saya marah atau bengang, saya prefer untuk diam sebab kalau saya bukak mulut, saya akan lukakan hati di sekeliling saya even bestfriends saya sendiri. kalau saya marah tp mood saya baik (?) saya akan ringan mulut cerita kat kawan. tapi kalau saya tgh marah tahap nak lempang orang ada baiknya saya menjauhkan diri drp orang lain.

perasaan marah ni susah nak kawal sebab angin amarah ni ditiup oleh syaitan. jadinya kena sentiasa beringat beristighfar byk2 supaya syaitan2 tu lari lintang pukang. tp biasalah, saya manusia biasa yg mudah lupa, bila marah lupa terus kat Allah. terlalu ikutkan kata hati walaupun Allah dah kurniakan kita akal yg waras.

apabila sesuatu yg tak baik terjadi di sekeliling saya, saya hanya mampu melihat sebabnya saya rasa terlalu rendah diri nak amalkan amar makruf nahi mungkar sebab diri sendiri pun banyak dosa dan sgtlah kekurangan. tapi dari sudut positifnya, kita akan cuba ajar diri kita supaya tak ikut benda yg tak baik tu. mungkin ni salah satu cara Allah bagi hidayah kat kita kan.

banyak pulak aku membebel. kejap guna aku, kejap guna saya. dah ngantukla pulak mata.

smooches~

in in in inner peace =)

2011-06-05T04:34:00.004+08:00

''your story may not have such a good beginning, but look how it turned out. Your past does not define you. It is what you decide that does'' - Po's dad, the noodle chef goose.

anyway, can i have a baby panda as a pet? cause little Po in Kungfu Panda 2 is too cute for words! geram geram geram!!!! i felt like hugging n gomol-ling (?) him right the moment i saw him on screen.

i always love kungfu panda for its awesomeness, the lawak nak mampus part and of course the main message the movie wants to convey to the audience. if Kungfu Panda 1 brought the message of believing in ourselves, this time it focused mainly on how we shouldn't let our past affect our future life. meaningful, no? =)

and this time, ade bibit2 percintaan antara Po n Tigress. isn't that sweet??? mula2 kemain bergaduh tapi last2 they truly support each other. awww. there's surely be Kungfu Panda 3. can't wait!!!

go watch it, ppl. serious tak rugi =D

smooches~

sulky eh?

2011-06-04T03:23:00.004+08:00

i think i've made someone sulky because i kinda ignore him in twitter. =P jadinya, untuk mengcover balik kesalahan saya, saya mahu memberi orang itu hadiah.

tadaaa!

jgn buat muka mcm org di atas ye. say cheeesseeeee hehe =)

credit pic-google n tumblr.

smooches~

penguin

2011-06-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

will you? =)

little Po

2011-05-29T01:31:00.003+08:00

i wanna watch this movie so bad. T_T

i miss Po and The Five, and also Shifu telinga besar boleh gerak2.

i remember when me n bf first watched kungfu panda in cinema on our third date (if i'm not mistaken) back in 2008, i was laughing so hard that he said he could only hear my laugh throughout the movie =_=''

random : tadi call mak cerita pasal muka dah naik jerawat balik blah blah blah stress blah blah blah badan dah gemok apa semua, mak reply satu benda je ; kat india sana takde jual pencuci muke Safi ke? O__O

smooches~

dental caries

2011-05-27T22:53:00.003+08:00

the book and the poster are done! yeay to my group! now whats left is the mock presentation and final presentation in front of the dean and othe dentistry faculty members.

i know i shouldn't take this project as a burden but yeap, it was a burden for me until when i saw the complete 127-pages book in front of me. the sweet fruit of our hardwork =)

thanks to all team members. =) we whined a lot, we complained on how cerewet Dr. Jaya was, we're frustrated with the poster guy who has difficulty in understanding simple word, we're tired of doing the same things over and over again, we were sad that the cost of our book is more compared to other groups and many more.

but we're happy during the night we spent together in syasya's room (this sounds so wrong lol), eating kuaci n segala mak nenek makanan syasya, karaoke-ing like a boss and... thats all? haha i can't think of anything more right now.

we're extremely relieved when Dr. Jaya said ''okay, it's final" =D

i wanna thanks IB diploma programme for giving me the experience of doing a 4000 words extended essay which had instilled various manipulating and improvising skills in me. it was very useful. i owe u man!

tomorrow we have to present in front of Dr Jaya, again. but i havent prepared anything yet. O_O

picture taken from nabilah's fb.

smooches~

independent

2011-05-22T03:22:00.002+08:00

this has been a tough week. alhamdullilah i've made it through, syukur for the strength that Allah has given me and of course a gazzilion thanks to my friends who are always by my side, helping and cheering me up.

first, i'll be staying in International Hostel starting tomorrow. one person per room. i've been living in hostel for 8 years but this is the first time i'll be staying alone. luckily dawa, myra n farah are living next door so there's nothing to be worried about. except for the elevator. hope it will be all okay when we shift there tomorrow morning. kalau tak jenuh den nak angkat beg berat sampai 6th floor.

the room itself? fantastic wa cakap lu! first time seeing a hostel room very much similar to a real hotel room! the furniture are wallahhhh! marvelous! i suka! but no TV la. who needs TV anyway when all our favourite shows can be streamed online? booyah. but it will surely menebuk a very big hole in your pocket cause it costs 100 000 rupees or approximately RM8500 per year. imagine paying that amount in one go. for student who's on a scholarship like me ni bukan takat tebuk lubang kat poket, ni poket tu hilang terus ditelan Manipal.

the view from my window is somehow errr architectural? because basically this international hostel is not completely built yet. WHAT? yes you heard me. i didn't have the gut to tell my mum about this cause she'll be resah-gelisah if she knows her one and only daughter is staying in a 3/4 built building where you can hear the drilling sound all day long. tapi mana nak cari pengalaman macam ni, hidup style india beb! almost all building here were built halfway to accomodate some ppl, then they'll sambung the construction like nobody's business. tahan jela bunyi bising orang gerudi sana sini. layan jela kan.

one thing that i don't like about moving is the packing part. so tedious and time+energy consuming. but thanks to najaa, i've done the packing part successfully. *flip hair* now what's left is the unpacking part which i love the most! i love re-arranging things according to my own preferences. but only when the mood is there la. memang takla aku nak mengemas 24 jam kan.

the next problem is internet connection. this time thanks to aien and whoever junior that recommended me the MTS broadband. not badla, modem pun cun teehee. but i'm gonna use it for 2 months only then i'm going to sell it to juniors who's moving into the hostel this September. now me n Myra have to go to BSNL to terminate our current connection and hopefully we don't have to face those 2 annoying old people. i'm not being rude, but to me all Manipal ppl are very nice except for those 2. grrr.

transport is settled, all thanks to our buchou (scooty's name) and the booking for our new apartment is also done. but MSP is still not over yet. i really want to break up with this project thing asap. serius penat. the only good part of this project is that when ppl talk about dental caries, at least i can understand a tad bit. well thats more than enough for me. we'll learn it in Year 2 anyway.

wow banyaknya aku membebel kali ni. i just need to get it out of my chest. seriously its tiring for me. i know, ni baru sikit, kena belajar jadi independent. sampai bila nak bergantung kat mak kan? that's what i'm doing right now. going through all this made me realized how unready i am for commitment other than to myself. i need to learn to properly manage my life first before i interfere with other ppl's life.

that's all for now. have a nice weekend everyone! cause i won't. T_T

smooches~

sepohon kayu daunnya rimbun

2011-05-20T01:00:00.004+08:00

nyanyi lagu sepohon kayu by hijjaz sambil buat nota biochem sebab rindu sgt kat budak debab sorang ni. sekarang sombong nak mampus dgn kakak sendiri, nak cakap phone ngan dy punyalah susah. bz kalah menteri padahal p main game Zuma tak reti nak stop.

tgk gambar ni buat hati tak sabar nak tgk kungfu panda 2. gemok macam Po! kecik2 dah pandai camwhore guna effect macam2. kaklong dulu tangkap gambar guna kamera buruk je, takde effect bagai.

kaklong janji, pas kaklong dah jadi dentist nnt, gigi kau kaklong repair first. huduh gila deciduous dentition (gigi susu) ada nursing bottle caries. semoga permanent dentition (gigi kekal) kau tumbuh cun belaka.

smooches~

kosong

2011-05-16T03:43:00.003+08:00

dulu tangan kanan saya sentiasa pakai ini, sampaikan ada classmate yg panggil saya fanash. even tcer amim pun panggil saya fanash. word ni saya yg invent, hasil gabungan nama saya n bf. fana dan ashraf.

tapi sekarang tangan kanan saya kosong. sebab tali bangle ni dah rosak terkena air. mula2 rasa pelik sebab dua tahun setengah pakai bangle ni setiap kali keluar g mana2. tapi sekarang takleh pakai dah. setiap kali bukak loker pandang sayu je benda ni.

jadinya, encik bf bila dah baca post ni silalah faham maksud tersirat. teehee. =P dah lama dah nak buat post ni tapi ntah napa baru mlm ni terkedek-kedek nak post.

semoga minggu ini menjadi minggu yg lebih baik drp minggu lepas sebab sebaik-baik manusia adalah manusia yg menjadikan hari esok lebih baik drp hari ini.

p/s : gmba worksteps math IB jd latar belakang bangle. rindula jugak kat subjek ni tp xdela sampai sanggup nk belajar lagi sekali. saya bukan otak math maaa.

smooches~

minggu ini

2011-05-15T01:44:00.002+08:00

minggu ini adalah minggu yang memenatkan. kenapa penat? ada banyak sebab. tapi tak boleh mengeluh. sebab semua ini ujian drp-Nya.

kita sentiasa berdoa semoga Allah bagi kita kejayaan yg cemerlang dlm pelajaran, tp kadang2 kita still tak dapat kejayaan yang kita nak. ini tak bermakna Allah tak makbulkan doa kita ataupun takmau bagi kita berjaya, tapi Allah sebenarnya dah kurniakan kita sifat sabar, tabah dan redha yg sgt sukar nak diperoleh oleh sesetangah org. at least ini apa yg kakak usrah saya bagitau aritu. bila fikir2 balik, memang betul pun kan. kadang2 kite je yg tak nmpak segala hikmah di sebalik apa yg dah terjadi.

jadinya minggu ini bermula dgn agak baik sebab minggu lepas hari2 tido dlm kelas pastu menangis bila study physiology sebab tak paham satu apa. so dah menyesal takmau tido dlm kelas lg walaupun adela jugak tersengguk-sengguk teehee biasala tu kan.

hari selasa saya dan myra dah dapat skuter baru weee comel warna merah. tapi takde nama lagi, malasla nk fikir.

minggu ni makin banyak luka-luka kat badan semuanya sebab prostho. *prostho lagi* tiap kali tulis blog mesti komplen pasal prostho tapi nak buat mcmn mmg prostho kurang best T_T sapa2 yg nak amek dentistry kalau diri tu clumsy mcm saya siap sediala nak terbakar jari, terpegang besi panas, terhiris jari sendiri, etc. ni bukan nak takutkan, ni sekdr peringatan :p

carving first maxillary molar aka gigi pertama geraham atas sgtlah menguji kesabaran. tapi kenalah jugak tabahkan hati buat slow2 kalau tak nnt bila patient dtg nak repair gigi geraham takkan nak carve central incisor (gigi kapak) kan? kalau camtu setengah jam patient kunyah makanan pun tak hancur2. *exaggerate*

dan dan dannnn yang paling menguji kesabaran minda dan fizikal ialah MSP aka mentor-student project. bayangkan, group lain semua buat chapter scope agak kecil sekali kat group saya amek kau satu chapter dental caries dy balun suruh buat buku. td masa present depan dr. jaya pun smpai 2 jam stgh baru habeh. sgtlaa byk dan susah nak paham sebab yelah, dental caries ni chapter year 2. even year 2 pun tak belajar sedetail apa yg kitorg buat. huisshh fana jgn mengeluh fana, sabar sabar.

oh result block 3 dah keluar, semua result turun, anatomy je yg naik. boleh usaha lagi this block.

oklah taktau nk tulis apa dah. rindu mak tiba2 taktau napa tah.

smooches~

four years

2011-05-10T04:23:00.002+08:00

selamat empat tahun, bf.

You’re so beautiful

But that’s not why I love you

And I’m not sure you know

That the reason I love you is you

Being you

Just you

Yeah the reason I love you is all that we’ve been through

And that’s why I love you

smooches~

mak

2011-05-08T13:39:00.004+08:00

rindu pulak kat si gemok baju biru tu

selamat hari mak buat mak tercinta, hatimah mat.

kenapa mak hebat sangat?

mak boleh stay up sepanjang malam jaga kitorg bila kitorg demam padahal mak kena g keja kul 7 pagi esok.

mak boleh halau saya belajar oversea padahal maklah org yg paling sedih masa dekat airport aritu.

mak berleter potpetpotpet sebab anak dara mak ni tak reti masak tapi mak tetap bangga dgn anak mak.

mak terer sangat masak kueyteaw, sampai anak mak jadi gemok sebab makan sampai tambah 3 kali teehee.

banyak lagilah, malas nak tulis nnt menitik air mata.

i really need u yesterday tapi tak sampai hati nak risaukan hati mak.

i love u to infinity and beyond, mak!

p/s: berani tulis mcmni sebab tau mak takkan baca. hehe

p/s/s: thanks to my friends for being by my side yesterday and to bf, thanks for being understanding =)

may

2011-05-04T01:56:00.002+08:00

salam ppl.

jadinya sekarang dah bulan May. *terkejut* dah nak dekat separuh tahun dah weh! kalau kat India still 3 hb, so a birthday shoutout to DJ kawan headbang lagu MCR, and kalau kat Malaysia dah 4 hb, so another birthday shoutout to my one and only mamma-nim, kappa@syarifah nuratiqah!!! oh ye juge belated birthday wish kepada ikmal sapini yg sombong sedikit tu yg besdaynye 2hb lepas.

hari ni merupakan permulaan block terakhir bagi pelajar first year BDS. *terkejut lagi* huaaa kenapa cepat sgt masa berlalu? rasa macam baru je semalam mendaftar kat Manipal ni sambil terbatuk-batuk sebab banyak sgt habuk. ayat cliche, memang pun. dah masuk block 4, maksudnya makin dekatla university exam tu. rasa cam nak meninggal bila fikir kena cover balik semua apa yg dah belajar from block 1.

nak habiskan baca 6 chapter dental anatomy dalam masa satu stgh hari pun dah meleleh air mata rasa mcm nak meninggal, ni nak habiskan semua chapter first year dlm masa 3 minggu. tak sanggup nak bayangkan betapa zombienya saya nanti.

anyhoo, berharap sgt block 4 ni subjek2nya lagi seronok dan lecturer2nya juga tidak membosankan seperti coughblock3cough. sebabnya, pengaruh subjek n lecturer ke atas mood nak belajar dan menghapai, hubungannya adalah directly proportional.

tapi hari ini sudah memberi impression bahawa block ini bakal menjadi seperti block lepas. T_T first day dah kena torture dgr lecture from 8 pagi sampai 4 petang. sebenarnya masa anatomy tadi memang dah tertido habis, masa dental material saya sibuk kira bajet duit untuk bulan ni, masa prostho saya asek tgk rambut dr. deepthi yg lawa tu, masa physio saya berangan2 bila nak p beli moto dan masa biochem saya tanya diri sendiri, apa yang aku belajar hari ni actually? sad.

still, mari berharap untuk yg terbaik!

akhir kata, goodluck to IB batch V for your final IB exam! just do your best and leave the rest to Allah S.W.T because He knows what's the best for you. macam dulu saya tak puas hati kenapa KMS campak saya kat Manipal yg ceruk ni tapi akhirnya baru nmpk hikmah di sebalik semua ni and i do believe that Manipal is the best for me. =)

smooches~

function

2011-04-23T19:54:00.005+08:00

i've been digging the f(x)'s latest album 'Pinocchio'. all the songs are great but my favourites are Love, My style and Danger. =)

completely fall head over heels for this girl:

rindula nak dengar lagu2 english yg femes masa zaman sekolah menengah dulu tapi malas nak download balik semua lagu2 tu. haih.

block exam start next week!!! sungguh cepat block ni berlalu rasa mcm baru je abeh pusing India aritu tengok2 dah nak exam balik semula.

taktau kenapa, sekarang sgt senang terdistract masa tgh study. so progress study sgtla lembap. dulu satu malam patut boleh habis 4 topic anatomy tp sekarang nak habiskan satu pun semput nafas aku nak baca. termenung n berangan je lebih. hmm kena ubah perangai ni. university exam dah makin dekat. tiap kali pk nak balik Malaysia mesti terpk psl exam so mcm takde mood nak balik Malaysia =_=''.

sigh.

smooches~

histology

2011-04-18T20:10:00.003+08:00

kerja budak2 BDS setiap malam sabtu:

to those who are coming to manipal, sila bawak kaler Luna yg 24 batang tu siap2 ye. kalau boleh bawak spare byk sikit.

rasa mcm nak tercabut tgn lukis nucleus cenonet seketoi2 dlm cells yg kecik itu.

smooches~

this is too cute

2011-04-12T18:13:00.002+08:00

found this picture in tumblr while listening to the 'perfect two' by Auburn =)

we're approaching our fourth one, if u get what i mean ^_^

smooches~

khas untuk orang UK

2011-04-11T16:34:00.004+08:00

eventho ko jauh di bumi europe sana dan kami semua hanyalah di bumi india yang panas dan kontang ini, tapi friendship kita tetap sama, malah bertambah kuat. =)

reason aku menjiwangkan diri dalam post ini adalah sebab kami semua sangatlah merindui ko dan segala kerenah2 mengarut ko dan segala lawak2 bengong ko.

sorryle tahun ni kitorg takleh nk post kad gergasi macam yg kitorg bagi tahun lepas. so kitorg bagi ni jela sbg ganti:

simple je, ni kitorg buat mase tgh bosan nak mampus dlm kelas physiology td ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KAWAN!

semoga ko jumpe lelaki melayu ala2 shah jaszle yg ko minat gila tu sebagai jodoh ko, hehe.

semoga ko sukses kat sana dgn PBL yg tak habeh2.

semoga skill memasak ko menjadi lebih hebat hari ke hari.

semoga bila ko shopping kat sana, ko tak lupa nk belikan something utk aku teehee.

semoga hidup ko berbahagia sentiasa walopun aku takdak kat sana. =)

sayang ko, madihah yusoff.

nih hadiah aku untuk ko:

baik tak aku? hehe

smooches~

first week

2011-04-08T02:43:00.002+08:00

hai people. i realized that my previous posts never had a regular greetings. main bantai ja aku nak cakap apa. tak apalah. malas nak pening2 kepala.

btw, minggu ni sangat exhausting semuanya sebab prosthodontics. tak lengkap hidup seorang first-year dental student jikalau dia tidak mengeluh dan mengomplen pasal prostho dan carving gigi.

letih tau dak, letih. teman memang dah tak larat dah nak buat koje prostho ni. tenage memang dah tak mandang. tapi cikgu teman sughoh jugak teman buat. penat teman picit-picit apa tah nama binatang tu, hah resin. bukan raisin kismis tu ye. ni benda yg digunakan nak buat denture or you ppl panggil gigi palsu.

carving lagi satu hal. udohle demo nak carve gigi second mandibular premolar tak mandang, sekali bile teman dah carve, cikgu teman p pandang aspek2 yg kurang signifikannya. teman dah tak tawu macam mana lagi nak kabo kat dia tu. haih sedih hati teman.

sabtu ni ade physio test. tapi baca baru ciput sebab tak berapa suka chapter block ni. segala mak nenek punya symptoms penyakit kena hapai. haish tak berkenan bab penyakit2 ni. aku lagi suka hapai metabolic pathways panjang berjela.

tapi yang bestnya, biochem n dental anat dah habis cover sume silibus so lepas ni lecturer dah tak masuk yeay. and next week jugak ade utsav (sejenis sambutan intercollege) so kelas petang semua cancel maknenya tiada prostho minggu depan!! yeehooo!!

rindu nak cakap loghat perak. kat sini takde geng nak cakap =(

smooches~

april

2011-04-01T23:08:00.002+08:00

u know that u're growing old when u're becoming more and more like your mother.

happy april everyone!

smooches~

vitamin

2011-03-27T00:34:00.003+08:00

dulu2 masa nur nazaa dan myro polyphagia suka beli vitamin dan ubat2 berlonggok-longgok kat manipal drug house (yeah they called pharmacy as drug house here), aku selalu rasa pelik watpela diorg membazer duit beli ubat banyak2, baik aku makan nasi combo kat food court, kenyang pun kenyang kan.

tapi haritu masa lepak kat bilik nazaa, aku belek2 vitamin C dy, pastu gusi aku terjatuh (jaw-dropped) sebab tgk harga dy untuk 10 tablets hanyalah 50 sen. MURAH KAN MURAH KAN?

jadinya selepas itu aku tak henti-henti mengulang ayat ''aku nk beli vitamin, aku nak beli vitamin'' smpai nazaa dan myro sudah muak mendengarnya tapi mereka tahan je. teehee. sebab tu aku sayang mereka. =)

ditambah dgn musim panas di Manipal yg baru bermula, kulit dan bibir pun makin kering. dalam kelas asek2 sapu lipbalm Himalaya kat bibir pastu lecturer tgk. entah2 dy pikir aku buat mcmtu sebab nak goda dy tak? =_=''

tudia stok untuk 2 bulan teruih baqheanggg!!!

aku beli vitamin C, vitamin E n calcium, nak prevent osteoporosis kan. semuanya cuma 15 ringgit sahaja. JELES TAK JELES TAK?

this is one of the reason whi i love manipal =)

p/s: minggu ni ade banyak homework. aish tak sukalah. nak layan nodame cantabile!

smooches~

post anatomy test

2011-03-25T00:45:00.004+08:00

finally thursday has passed! i couldn't wait for friday to come because i've been dreading the anatomy test which was done early this morning. 8 chapters were included and we just started our class barely a month ago. Another month to go before Block Exam kicks off and we got 15 more chapters to be covered. Anatomy kills you know.

masuk 8 chapters pun dah tertonggeng-tonggeng aku baca, ni nak baca 23 chapters untuk Block Exam. kalau University Exam nnt pulak 23 x 4 = 92 chapters nak kena baca!!! baiklah boleh terjun bangunan sekarang.

During afternoon class we have anatomy dissection, and luckily the chapter covered for today was a very small topic; the hypoglossal nerve yakni nerve kepala otak yang ke-12.

apa nerve dalam Bahasa Melayu ek? urat? sendi? abaikan.

so after the lecturer was satisfied with her mengorek-nerve-dlm-kepala-mayat action, we were left to study on our own. but being a 'good' student, we chose to have some quality time for us to cherish our childhood memories by polishing back our drawing buah-buahan dan haiwan skills.

cuba cari kanggaru dlm gambar di atas.

gambar di sudut kanan, bawah anda ialah ikan pari hasil masterpiece nur nazaa (bukan nama sebenar)

yes we're approaching 21 years old this year yet we played this childish game and laughed our heart out seeing nur nazaa's star-faced. any problem with that?

smooches~

hadiah awak

2011-03-20T14:41:00.004+08:00

video cincai buat bf sempena birthday yg ke 21. walaupun cincai, saya buat dgn seikhlas hati dan perasaan =) malu n nervous gila bak hang! sampaikan nak pandang kamera pun tak sanggup.

ucapan terima kasih ditujukan kpd kawan-kawan yg sudi menjadi kamerawoman dan cameo tak berbayar. love u guys! =)

sepatutnya video ni upload kat tumblr sebab seganla nak upload kat sini tapi tumblr buat hal la pulak. sabo jela aku.

kepada bf, walaupun saya tahu anda akan gelak berdekah-dekah tgk video ni dan video ni akan menjadi bahan kutukan sepanjang zaman, saya tetap nak suruh awak tengok. eee apa bersaya-awak ni, geli i.

sila abaikan tudung yg senget-benget, gelak-tawa yg excessive sebab nak cover malu dan segala weird gestures.

happy birthday, bf. i love you.

smooches~

lewat sehari

2011-03-19T02:59:00.006+08:00

happy 21st birthday to mr. bf!

since this is the first time we couldn't celebrate his birthday together, i was a little bit sad and sorry for him. but i think that makes us appreciate each other more especially during special occasion like this. =)

anyhooo, i do hope he still enjoy his special day without me by his side. ke lagi suka aku takdak kat sana ha? *muka serius*

what i did above maybe typical, but my love for you is not typical you know. *insert lagu cintaku bukan di atas kertas......*

cheesy gila fanarosli ni!!!! *puke*

p/s : choco pie dan snickers sekadar hiasan sebab tak nak bagi kertas tu terbang.

smooches~

jauh

2011-03-12T02:18:00.001+08:00

good old times. rindu.

smooches~

this is agonizing

2011-03-11T02:47:00.004+08:00

nak balik Malaysia makan KFC!!!!! T_____T

*gamba cilok from google*

smooches~

how do you define cruelty?

2011-03-08T02:15:00.002+08:00

is it like this?

since when our world has become a very sad place to live?

smooches~

finally, after 6 months

2011-03-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

we cooked!!! hehehe. it was a great achievement for us ( me, myra, naurah, kappa, najaa) considering it was sunday(the only holiday that we have in a week) and it was our very first time masak lauk-pauk. before this we only attempted kek batik which was a very huge success! clap clap clap.

clockwise from above : sayur campur, scramble egg, tembikai + honey dew, aaaa apa nama lauk ni ek yg mcm inti dlm telur bungkus tu, ayam masak madu.

ada kisah di sebalik kewujudan scramble egg tu sebenarnya, tapi biarlah rahsia =P

jangan tanya rasa dy mcmn, yg penting semuanya edible. hee.

malam tu pulak masak nasi goreng cina n nasi goreng paprik guna perencah maggi. nak tumis sendiri macam takde bakat je. tapi still nasi goreng tu jadi pelik tapi hentam je makan sebab dah penat-penat masak.

sepatutnya malam ni kena carve 4 wax blocks untuk gigi premolar, tapi nmpk gaya macam tak buat je, dah ngantuk. premolar, awat hang susah sgt untuk dicarve?

smooches~

bukan tak bersyukur...

2011-03-01T00:42:00.004+08:00

...tapi kalau saya tau saya mampu buat lebih baik daripada itu, tak apa kan kalau saya kecewa dgn results practical exam saya? saya tahu saya tak buat sehabis baik untuk practical physiology n DADH dan saya dah dpt result yg setimpal.

pengajaran untuk tidak mengabaikan practical exam lepas ni.

tapi yang lain-lain, alhamdullilah saya puas hati walaupun terkilan essay anatomy dah score tapi spoil kat MCQs. tapi macam yg saya pernah bagi teka-teki kat semua orang : what is the biggest room in the world?

it's the room for improvement. =)

smooches~

Pi

2011-02-26T02:58:00.003+08:00

woah!

smooches~

home sweet home

2011-02-22T18:17:00.003+08:00

hai semua!!!! *waving frantically* how's your day? mine? it's so-so. have u guys eaten? me not yet..maybe 2 hours to come i'll order my dinner. so, do u miss me? what? no? its okay, i understand u guys are a little shy kan? hehe so cute.

macam hampeh punya intro.

rasa rindu sangat kat Manipal sepanjang 2 minggu stgh pergi meronda-ronda keliling india tapi bila dah balik Manipal, rasa blur pulak taktau nak buat apa. nak keluar pun rasa malas asyik nak golek-golek online atas katil je. baju ade sebakul nak basuh dengan ada lagi 2 extra beg nak unpack. nak ada 8 tangan mcm labah-labah boleh? macam pompuan yg dalam cerita Journey to The West yg ada Sun Wukong tu.

btw, saya rasa saya tak berkemampuan utk mengupdate pasal trip saya sebab macam banyak sgt benda nak diceritakan tapi saya ni jenis yg suka bercerita pakai mulut. so nnt saya akan upload gambar2 beserta caption yg panjang sedikit sebagai ulasan selari okay?

lagi 5 hari nak start kelas. dreadful gila rasa.

smooches~

trip

2011-02-04T23:20:00.001+08:00

away for 2 and a half weeks for all around india trip with my girlfriends!

i'll buy u guys some souvenier.....not. hehe got no moneylaa. =P

pls pray for our safe journey okay.

smooches~

the end of january

2011-01-31T22:55:00.003+08:00

the first month of 2011 has ended. there's nothing special about this month except for the the block exam that i'm currently sitting. 3 papers sudah jatuh, satu lagi mahu pergi which is the hardest one, my beloved dental anatomy and dental histology subject.

so far all the previous 3 papers were quite okay, not that i'm all confident that i nailed the paper but i was satisfied.

i have this one post-examination syndrome whereby i don't have the confidence to check the answer for the question right after the exam ended. usually it took me a few days or even weeks for me to finally muster the courage to check for the right answer and by that time the marks were already out. hehe.

one more thing, i can remember vividly what i've answered in the exam paper, including the turutan of my MCQs answer. its that bad. that's why i was so restless whenever someone discussed and started checking the correct answer from the book. worst thing is that, i got easily disturbed if i know i've answered wrongly and that will make me all down and emotional for a few days.

sometimes strong memory does has its disadvantages.

smooches~

blog title

2011-01-25T03:40:00.002+08:00

sedih sebenarnya tgk blog title yg baru tapi kita kenela belajar menerima kenyataan bahawa umur memang makin meningkat.

macam tahun ni dah masuk 21 tahun dan pencapaian terbesar saya setakat ini ialah menjejakkan kaki di bumi india untuk buat degree dalam bidang yg bukan pilihan saya pada mulanya.

paling besar ke pencapaian tu?

sekarang ni dah malas nak pikir benda yg remeh-temeh. nak terima je semua benda as they are. tapi memang takleh nak tolakla segala rasa tak puas hati, salah paham dan semua2 perasaan negatif tu kan. semoga dijauhkan dari hati.

merepek apa aku malam-malam buta ni.

mungkin efek ketebalan nota pulp dan periodontal ligament sudah mula menghantui diri. habis ink higlighter aku nak highlight points penting.

rasa simpati kat bf sendiri sebab dapat gf yg tak sweet. demand bf suruh jd sweet tapi diri sendiri blur and bosan naseb baik bf tak g cari gf baru pheww.

i miss u la bf. sebab u selalu bawak i p makan sedap2. hehe. ikhlas ni. =)

sekarang ni rasa nak mencuba sesuatu yg baru membuak-buak so tiap kali kawan ajak pegi cuba benda baru, wajib ikut walaupun duit habis.

macam pegi funfair, naik torra-torra yg buat kepala pening, pegi cuba makan tempat baru, apa lagi ek? hish takleh fikir dah.

tapi ada satu bende je yg saya tak terdaya nak ikut.

jogging di pagi hari di end point bersama myra dan miyn.

smooches~

bangles

2011-01-24T23:30:00.006+08:00

dah duduk india memang tak sahla kan kalau tak beli gelang serba-serbi meriah. actually i'm not into these bangles tapi td dah rambang mata sgt lagipun harga memang sangat murah so macam kalau tak beli tu memang macam ko tolak Johnny Depp bila dy masuk meminang. hihihi. jk.

banyak lagi yg lagi cantik, lagi merelap-relip tapi kalau beli pun buat apa kan, bukannya nak p interview nak jadi penari latar shah rukh khan dlm filem dy.

tp rasanya before balik Malaysia nak beli jugak satu set gelang yg paling merelap sampai silau biji mata.

hehe.

smooches~

insult

2011-01-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

i bet everyone knows how does it feels to be insulted either intentionally or unintentionally. sometimes i would put the 'i-don't-care' act whenever i sensed someone was insulting me. but there's also times when i took an insult heavily. i pondered about the real message the person wanted to convey to me and i tend to dwell on it for a quite long period of time. what more if the insult came from your friends. sometimes you're confused whether he/she was joking or dead serious regarding what they're talking about because somehow you can't tell it from their facial expression. as for me, whenever i was insulted directly or indirectly, i felt guilty for the excruciating heartache that i had in my heart because i also have tendency to insult people and to make it worst, sometimes i insult people on purpose. so i thought i don't have the right to feel insulted because i also insult people around me. sigh.

our battle

2011-01-17T02:37:00.001+08:00

the battle starts tomorrow and will end in 3 weeks time.

so good luck everyone!

smooches~

weeks ahead

2011-01-08T17:14:00.002+08:00

busy + depressing + sleepless + dying + torturing + excruciating weeks are nearing without any mercy. this block passes by way too fast compared to the previous one. block which i'm saying is not your apartment block or road-block, here it means half of the semester period in Malaysia which is the usual 6 months duration. but in Manipal, 3 months are considered to be one block and yeah, examination is ALWAYS the best way to end a block.

why can't they end it with a happier and stress-free method? sigh.

so block exam is in 3 weeks time and lecturers (or whoever makes it) are happily arranging the exam schedules to our convenience...NOT. so lemme list down all the hurdles + obstacles we're facing before the big day comes as a self-reminder.

11/1 - dental materials class test - impression compound

17/1 - physiological practical + OSPE

18/1 - anatomy viva class test

20/1 - biochemistry class test

21/1 - presentation PBL physiology

22/1 - anatomy block spotters

24/1 - physiology viva

27/1 - 2/2 --> block exam kicks off!!!!

so yeah, thats about it. imagine my suffering throughout the coming weeks. test after test which requires me reading tonnes of notes, handouts, memorizing all the courses, origins, termination and branches of segala bagai arteris and veins. and not to mention, turning me into a zombie.

let us be strong and fight through this like there's no tomorrow. *harapan*

p/s : bila dah list downkan semua ni, rasa bertambah stress sebab baru perasan takdak gap langsung antara semua test tu. huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

smooches~

2010

2010-12-31T21:24:00.004+08:00

2010 is a wonderful and meaningful year for me. i've undergone some minor and major transformations in me throughout this one year period. so excuse this long post of cherishing my own sweet and bitter moments in my life.

january

the commencement of semester 4 of IB in MCS. as the hellish semester (sem 3) ended with me completing nothing on the IB-suicidal-assignment list, the nerdiest sem came mercilessly to replace it. my EE was terrible, my TOK essay merewang ke Mekah but luckily i didn't have to redo my IAs. pheww. that's a lot of stress u know. ada banyak pergaduhan n misunderstanding among my peers disebabkan IA ni.

february

still struggling to complete my EE and TOK essay. ink printer sampai habis buat print EE sampai 3 kali sebab asyik kena reject je. when i submitted both assignments to the respective lecturers, rasa macam ada satu batu besau dah terangkat from bahu. the feeling at that time is just...undescribable.

march

IRP started. sitting in the same spot in my favourite group in the dark 'cave', facing the same face and doing the same routine everyday. coffee DS adalah mantap tapi sedih sebab cikgu Azizah tak bagi bawak minum kat meja. subjek lain main bantai ja bukak kedai kopi kat meja group. membuat berlemon-lemon past years sampai dah nak muntah, tapi sebab ada kawan2, jadi sangat enjoy bila study.

celebrated his 20th birthday. =)

april

IRP session was still going on. then, the IB trial. first time dapat grade 4 sepanjang buat IB sebab mathematics punya soalan tahap killer dalam cerita Saw. memang kejam dan psychotic. tapi overall still satisfactory. alhamdullilah =)

may

Final IB examination. i was quite confident in answering the papers but i knew i'm not gonna get a 7 for mathematics. macam harapan gila laaaa. masa bulan ni, dah start nak berpisah dgn kawan2, semua pun rasa sedih especially bila dah tak dapat nak tido sebilik dgn mcdee, dah takleh nak gila2 dgn mira, dah takleh nak layan k-pop ngan dayang and many more.

fourth album super junior was out! muehehe

and yeah, our 3rd year anniversary =)

june

proses menggemokkan diri di rumah. duduk kat rumah bosan gila taktau nak buat apa, so masa dihabiskan dgn pegi ke lost world of tambun untuk berjumpa dgn kawan2 lama. tidak lupa proses belajar memasak, belajar menjahit, belajar jaga anak, pegi kursus kahwin...NOT.

july

IB results were out and sadly, my batch didn't perform out that well because the examiners were bad mood when they're marking our paper because their babies won't stop crying in the middle of the night and their nescafe couldn't help them to stay awake until 3 in the morning. sheeeshhhh kidding okay.

but again, alhamdullilah my result was okay except for the unexpected 6 in biology.

august

graduation day!! first time pegi hari anugerah cemerlang without my parents. sedih naik pentas dua kali tapi tak ada orang nak tumpang bangga. tapi seronok sebab dapat jumpa all the lecturers yg sgt dirindui and of course, my beloved batchmates. =)

dah mula proses berulang-alik ipoh-KL untuk settlekan hal dgn MARA. masa ni MARA mmg byk kali menguji kesabaran students, tapi sebab diorg dah bagi pinjaman setengah juta, terpaksa la sabar ja. dah rasa distance from ipoh to KL mcm g jalan kaki g kedai runcit mamak depan rumah je time ni.

september

dah mula sibuk isi borang dan berulang-alik cari saksi sana sini. mak dah pening banyak duit habis beli barang2 nak fly sebab anak pompuan dy beli barang macam nak tinggal forever kat india hehehehe i love u mummehhh.

19hb Sept - first time naik flight. KL-Bangalore. yeah, 20 tahun hidup baru merasa naik kapal terbang. saya simpati dgn hidup saya sendiri.

bermulanya hidup baru as a dental student. =)

october

still adjusting to my life in Manipal. 3 minggu pertama tiap2 malam menangis air mata darah sebab rindu family. ni la first time belajar perasaan homesick tu macam mana.

tapi dah sebulan kat sini, dah tak sempat nak rasa homesick sebab bz mengalahkan PM. but i'm loving my life as a dental student. walaupun pilih course dentistry sebab terpaksa, tapi sekarang rasa macam tak menyesal pun amek sebab this course is super-fun minus the depressing parts laaa kan.

celebrated my first birthday here in india away from my family and bf. =( luckily friends were being nice and wonderful =D

dah mula sayang Manipal and rasa nak belajar kat sini lama-lama sebab makan kat sini memang heaven gila plus barang2 sangatla murah.

november

the first block exam. baru dok Manipal sebulan setengah tengok2 dah ada exam besar, terkesima kejap. alhamdullilah, results okay so far. hopefully dpt maintain throughout these 5 years.

experiencing many new things here in India which were very fun.

dah mula rindu makanan Malaysia. T__T

december

what??? december already?? next year dah 21???????

thanks to people who've been colouring and spicing up my 2010. much love. =)

smooches~

change

2010-12-26T03:23:00.002+08:00

dulu suka berada dalam zon selamat.

macam kalau dah tau satu restoran ni roti telur dy sedap, maka setiap kali pergi kedai tu, wajib pesan roti telur. tak berani nak cuba menu lain sebab takut duit terbazir beli benda tak sedap.

rindu roti telur mamak.

jadinya tadi terfikir, rasa diri macam pengecut. rasa rugi. awak nampak (u see), dalam hidup ni ada banyak bende menarik. banyak sangat. tapi kenapa kita limitkan diri sendiri daripada merasai semua kemenarikan itu?

sebab kita sudah selesa begini?

sebab kita takut semua percubaan tak berbaloi?

sebab kita malas?

sebab kita takde geng nak buat?

sebab kita takde duit?

sebab takdir dah tentukan macamtu?

masa kecik2 dulu, saya dah bazirkan banyak peluang. sebagai seorang anak polis, saya diberi pelbagai keistimewaan untuk mempelajari pelbagai kemahiran diri seperti taek-kwan-do, karate, berenang, silat dan sebagainya dgn harga yang tersangatlaa rendah sebab kawan abah sendiri yang ajar.

tapi saya tolak semua tu sebab kelas2 itu diadakan pada waktu malam manakala kelas berenang pada hujung minggu.

semuanya sebab nak tgk kartun. sailormoon, dragon ball, arale, power rangers.

sudahnya, kini berasa menyesal sorg2 bila tgk adik sendiri dah pandai berenang. apa yang saya boleh buat dgn ilmu yg saya dapat drp kartun yg saya tgk masa malam dan weekend tu?

habuk pun tarak. hanya keseronokan sementara.

kalau saya pergi kelas karate atau berenang, sekurang-kurangnya saya dapat membantu orang dalam kesusahan satu hari nanti.

nampak pengajarannya di situ?

mari beranikan diri mencuba sesuatu yang baru.

smooches~

new addiction

2010-12-19T08:01:00.001+08:00

sweet sangat!!

kalaulah mak izinkan kawen awal, rasa macam nak kawen skrg jugak.

smooches~

MD41

2010-12-10T03:55:00.003+08:00

we never know what we have until they're all vanish right before our eyes.

dulu nak sangat cepat2 habis buat IB sebab rasa penat, rasa macam nak mati, rasa terbeban, rasa nak pengsan tengok IA berlambak2.

sebab nak cemerlang dalam study, lupa langsung pasal sukan, pasal aktiviti luar, pasal menikmati kehidupan, pasal mengexplore bende2 menarik, pasal mencuba bende2 baru.

tapi nasib baik ada kawan2 yang sanggup menarik kaki, mengejut sampai goncang2 badan, merayu-rayu, memujuk-mujuk untuk belajar menikmati kehidupan.

belajar menghargai masa yang anda ada sekarang. cuba buat benda baru. jangan berada di takuk selamat je.

saya rindu zaman di mana tiada keperluan untuk berfikir dengan lebih matang dalam berkata-kata. tapi haruslah belajar grow up drp sekarang.

smooches~

2010-12-07T03:23:00.003+08:00

memang susah nak jaga hati semua orang. kadang2 kita sensitif, tapi terpaksa berlakon jadi tak sensitif. bila once kita luahkan semua apa yg terpendam dlm hati, kita rasa puas. tapi kita takut orang lain pulak yg terasa. kita nak dia tahu apa kita rasa. kita kawan dia. kita mahu lebih memahami. tapi takut nanti jadi lebih renggang pulak. jadi kita ambil langkah berdiam diri dan pendam semua. kemudian macam mana kita nak hadapi dia esok dan hari2 seterusnya? kadang2 rasa lemas bila tengok kawan kita dibuat orang, tapi lagi lemas bila kita tak mampu nak buat apa-apa untuk selamatkan dia. kita pun tak sebaik mana, jadi kita takut untuk bersuara lebih2, takut dianggap syok sendiri. tapi kawan kita ada, bagi kita kekuatan. bila kita sudah dapat kekuatan dan hidayah itu, ada ja dugaan lain yg datang drp org yang kita kasih. dan sekali lagi kita harus pilih; sama ada kita mahu hati kita puas atau kita lukakan hati orang lain. tapi kadang2 orang lain bersikap lebih terbuka drp apa yg kita sangka. kita je yang tak tahu. ada je yg boleh menerima. tapi kita tak pernah ambil tahu. kita ambil tahu golongan2 yg bising, yang tidak mahu menerima. kawan2 kita keluarga kita, dan seharusnya kita buat yang terbaik supaya tidak mengguris satu sama lain. kenapa mesti ada benda yg terjadi yg menyakitkan hati setiap kali kita baru sahaja selesai bersalaman, berpelukan. bila orang lukakan hati kita, kita lebih suka membalas dgn melukakan hati org itu kembali. lumrah manusia. kita semua begitu. hati sekarang runsing tgk kejadian depan mata. tak mahu jadi macamni lagi.

kita dekat, tapi kita jauh sebenarnya.

jiwa kacau. truly luahan hati.

smooches~

korean break

2010-12-03T18:24:00.005+08:00

at last i have some new songs to headbang whenever i feel down and frustrated. thanks my chemical romance for the danger days album on their comeback.

red hair suits u fine, bebeh.

eventhough i think their new comical concept doesn't suit them well, whatmore with weird MVs for Na Na Na and Sing, they're still cool the way they were back during The Black Parade days.

my favourite songs from this album so far:

summertime

scarecrow

bulletproof heart

na na na

planetary

Gerard's voice is still the same. the emotional and shrieking voice. suka!

i'm still digging the album to seek for a full satisfaction, so i'm taking a break from all korean songs for this weekend.

smooches~

block 2

2010-12-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

sama tak? pegang yg betul punya baru feel nak belajar!

tak sangka tengkorak kita ni ada banyak sangat foramen dan canal. ingatkan kerja dy pegang otak bagi dok diam2 ja.

buat masa sekarang saya sedang mencuba untuk menyemai dan memupuk minat yg mendalam kepada subjek prosthodontics dan dental materials.

semoga minggu depan tidak akan menjadi zombie dalam kelas prostho dan semoga otak dalam tengkorak saya dapat memahami apa yg diajar dalam dental materials.

smooches~

blissful moments

2010-11-28T22:15:00.003+08:00

selama 13 belajar di sekolah + kolej di Malaysia, saya sudah dibiasakan dgn situasi cuti panjang setiap kali selesai exam kritikal. tapi sekarang kena biasakan diri dgn prinsip universiti saya yg mengamalkan konsep, ''ye kau dah habis exam penting, tapi ada aku kisah?''. tak ada cuti panjang untuk merilekskan diri dgn lebih lanjut selepas exam. sedih? SANGAT!

sedikit ulasan mengenai exam penting pertama saya di sini :

tak susah tapi tak senang. tendency untuk careless dan hilang markah free amat tinggi.
space antara row dlm kertas kajang sgtla luas, bajet tulisan saya mcm tulisan bapak gajah ke apa?
kepakaran melukis amat diperlukan dlm menjawab soalan.
dental anatomy punya essay paper mampu membuatkan tangan saya tercabut.
25 minit semasa anatomy spotters merupakan 25 minit terpantas dlm hidup saya. masa 1 minit untuk satu stesen memang menguji kemampuan untuk berfikir dan menulis dgn laju. 25 stesen di mana 21 stesen yg ada kepala, 2 stesen melihat cells under the microscope dan 2 stesen yg ada tengkorak seems to be endless.
physiology paper memuaskan.
biochemistry paper juga memuaskan.
carving of maxillary central incisor kurang memuaskan. incisal ridge terlebih nipis dan akar gigi agak cacat. tangan menggeletar masa nak polish and lukis midline.
semasa gap antara exam, saya hanya akan tido selepas 6 pagi dan bgun semula pukul 12 tengah hari. masa IB pun saya tak penah study segila mcm ni.

rasanya tu jelah. bila agaknya hidup saya akan bebas drp peperiksaan? *harapan*

sudah menjadi kewajipan bagi kami gadis BDS untuk mereward diri sendiri selepas mengalami sleepless night selama seminggu. ya, kami memang suka mereward diri sendiri walaupun untuk benda kecik sekalipun because we're young and we're enjoying our precious teenage life cewahhh!!

teenage lagi ke kami ni?

jadinya selepas hampir 3 bulan kami di sini, akhirnya kami telah menjejakkan kaki ke malpe beach. *clap hands* pantai dy biasa2 aja, cantik lagi pantai Malaysia. tapi yg bestnya mestila sesi photoshoot. kami juga menaiki boat untuk pergi ke pulau berhampiran. agak kecewa nama pulau tu sempena nama orang putih. St. Mary. bagila nama indian sikit.

bds itu ialah bachelor of dental science ya.

dulu masa trip ke langkawi naik boat lama2 pun tak kisah sebab its a very bumpy and fun ride terutama apabila boat melanggar ombak dan air terpercik-percik (?) ke muka. tapi tadi, oleh sebab kami BDS girls ada 18 orang n hanya menaiki satu boat, jadi boat itu amatlaa perlahan dan perjalanan ke pulau pula membosankan.

dah selesai bersuka ria di pantai, kami pergi berjoli duit di Temple Street, Udupi. ini merupakn kali pertama saya bershopping di Udupi jadinya paham2 jela nafsu tu mcmn kan. saya dh berjaya membeli 4 kurta yg cumel2 dlm 1000 rupee iaitu bersamaan dgn RM 70. hidup saya bahagia.

esok dah mula kelas seperti biasa. *lap airmata*

smooches~

sigh

2010-11-25T07:34:00.001+08:00

as a muslimat, my knowledge level in ilmu agama and ukhrawi is very pathetic. but one thing i know, when u've done something that is clearly wrong di sisi agama,what more if the issue is mentioned in Holy Quran, it will always be wrong no matter how much u try to argue. just admit your mistake and take initiative to repent. don't simply boast about any principle that you've practice all this while without a concrete basis.

i also committed the same mistake, the same sin but i would never argue if anyone comes to me to correct me, even if he/she would use the rudest way to convey the message. because he/she is right and i am wrong.

don't say islam is simple just because you heard other people said so. its the people like you and me who made it complicated, but we are oblivious of it.

tiba2 rasa nak luahkan perasaan yg terpendam. this is supposed to be my reply to someone in tumblr, but i just don't have the strength to do so, so i posted it here.

smooches

exam syndrome

2010-11-24T02:24:00.001+08:00

this is too pretty to be eaten.

i'm in the middle of my first block exam, got biochem paper tomorrow. so while memorizing all the types of carbohydrate i looked at this picture for inspiration.

psycho.

smooches~

suara

2010-11-17T04:41:00.002+08:00

for the first time in my almost 2 months period of staying here in india, i managed to talk to all my family members on the phone. they're wishing me hari raya haji, maaf zahir batin, makan apa semua, all that stuff.

but the best thing is hijjaz's voice is still the same. the annoying mosquito voice that wished me samat hari raya. haha. and this is the first time i ever spoke to mursyid (my form 2 brother) on phone since i left Malaysia. being far away from each other makes me appreciate my siblings more. i even said to him if he were to score his final exam, i'm going to buy him anything that he desires. i'm a good sister like that.

well, hopefully mak doesn't cry tomorrow. because i'm the only daughter in the house, so usually i was the one who helped her with all the coooking, the membasuh n mengelap pinggan, the mengemas rumah and etc.

i miss home.

smooches~

i'm a malaysian, how about u?

2010-11-14T18:51:00.003+08:00

i really miss roti canai. luckily we have nasi lemak and teh tarik here.

smooches~

hellish week

2010-11-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

minggu ni baru dapat the real wake-up call yg saya sekarang sedang membuat degree dalam course dentistry, bukan course yang simple2 sampai kau boleh goyang kaki tiap2 petang tgk cerita korea.

setiap hari dlm minggu ni tak lengkap tanpa test atau viva. masa hari ahad last week dlm pala otak asek fikir mcmn saya nak survive minggu ni. tapi akhirnya survive jugak. still bernafas walaupun agak semput skrg sebab baru main netball tadi.

viva anatomy agak hampeh. rasa bodoh gila sebab taktau parietal eminence tu apa. hypoglossal nerve pun taktau mcmn rupa. dah berselirat nerve2 kat tengkuk cadaver tu, mmg takla kan bagi seorang manusia yg suka tido masa kelas dissection mcm saya ni nak detect each and every nerve yang ada kat kepala manusia.

yes, baru sebulan stgh kat sini tapi dah kene hapai segala nerve and blood supply kat kepala. tu belum tgk budak yg amek medic lagi.

rasa macam nak meninggal.

satu benda saya belajar kat sini, bila menjawab viva, haruslah level confidence meng-exceed 100%. sebab lecturers mmg suka bermain dgn emosi dgn membuat facial expression menggunakan muscle procerus dan corrugator supercilli lalu membuatkan saya teragak-agak dgn jawapan sendiri walaupun dah konfem betul.

haruslah yakin dgn jawapan sendiri kan. nnt dah jadi dentist takkan nak teragak-agak depan patient.

kat sini, perbuatan membaca notes sambil berjalan dan hanya memakan megi semasa lunch, juga sambil membaca notes adalah perkara biasa.

test dental materials pulak oklaaa, not bad. sistem di sini yg mengamalkan jika anda betul, dpt 1 markah, tp jika anda salah, kena tolak 0.5 markah memang memguji keupayaaan mental untuk membuatkan keputusan dgn betul.

test dental anatomy sgtla confusing. sekali jawab rasa mcm confident, tapi bila cek balik mcm ade je salah. tapi tak berani nak tukar jawapan sebab my history dgn MCQs question ni kan, setiap kali saya tukar jawapan, konpem salah. pastu mulela tak tido malam sebab menyesal tukar jawapn last minute. so dah byk kali remind diri sendiri jgn tukar jawapan. tapi aritu taktau apsal bengong sgt p tukar jugak. huu.

tapi saya suka sebenarnya test banyak2 ni. sgt membantu semasa final exam nnt. setiap bende yg lecturer plan untuk kita, semuanya untuk kebaikan kita jugak, bukan untuk meyeksa kita. =)

smooches~

rasanya lah

2010-11-04T01:02:00.004+08:00

rasanya lah, saya tidak akan memilih prosthodontics sebagai cabang yang ingin saya tempuhi selepas saya tamat membuat degree nanti.

rasa bangga pulak bila dah boleh cakap "wey, aku tgh buat degree ni" =_='

sudahla lecture prostho sering membuat saya menguap dan mengantuk tahap dewa, ditambah dgn kefahaman yang masih tidak hadir di dalam hati (?) walaupun lecturer mengajar bagai nak rak.

seriusly, saya rasa seperti tidak mendapat apa2 input pun sepanjang lecture berlangsung. hanya memandang slides dengan mata hati yang kosong.

kekecewaan ditambah semasa praktikal prostho berlangsung di mana kami disuruh membuat negative replica of die. die di sini bukan bermaksud pergi mati, sebaliknya die ialah suatu postive replica of your oral cavity. atau bahasa mudah die itu merupakan suatu subjek yg menyerupai bahagian2 dlm oral cavity anda. mudah bukan?

apa maksud oral cavity dalam bahasa melayu? ruang mulutkah? =_=' sedih cikgu azizah kalau dy tau bekas anak murid dy dah cacat bahasa ibunda.

kami perlu menekan suatu material bernama impression compound yang sgt keras tapi bila celup dalam air panas, jadi lembik. characteristic ini dinamakan thermoplastic. saya mengerah sepenuh tenaga untuk mem-press die bersama impression compound. bila bukak, rasa macam dah cun, hati pun kembang kuncup bawak p jumpa lecturer.

percaya tak, beginilah rupa oral cavity anda di bahagian maxillary yakni bahagian yg ada lelangit tu.

berkecai hati bila lecturer cakap ''nothing is recorded". ini bermaksud impression compound saya tak ada secubit pun rupa seperti oral cavity. maksudnya tenaga zahir yg saya kerahkan masih belum mampu untuk manjadikan impression compound yg berkaler coklat itu betul2 menyerupai oral cavity seorang manusia.

kalau sekali tak apa, ini sudah 537435238 kali lecturer cakap begitu. okay, exaggerated gila babeng.

jadi sepanjang 3 jam praktikal itu, hidup saya dipenuhi moment2 menyeksakan di mana tangan sudah menjadi kasar dan numb. tenaga juga sudah kehabisan sehingga saya terpaksa meminta pertolongan classmate untuk mencabut die itu drp compound budus itu. sungguh menguji kesabaran.

tambah hampa apabila rakan2 di sekeliling sudah di-approved oleh lecturer, dan mereka sudah boleh proceed dgn upacara mengikis saki-baki compund itu. tapi saya masih di situ, di ceruk yg sama, menekan-nekan die di atas impression compound, dgn mata merah air mata hampir berlinang. tapi masih mampu control macho.

sungguh, bidang ini perlukan azam dan determination yang sangat kuat. putus asa tidak harus ada dalam kamus hidup.

smooches~

bidan terjun

2010-11-03T02:24:00.007+08:00

ironic. benda pertama yg ada dlm kepala bila diri tiba2 baik hati nak join main futsal sebagai wakil kelas dlm interbatch competition. dulu masa kat mrsm n kolej, fanarosli dikenali sebagai orang paling malas riadah, hanya tahu tido masa riadah, dan paling malas berjalan kaki untuk pergi ke mana2. pasar malam ampangan pun tak rela nak pergi. 2 tahun kat kolej adela dalam 2 kali pernah pergi jogging kat lake garden seremban. tu pun sebab lepas tu nak p brakfast kat bistro n teman mcdee usha mamak bistro tu. hoho.

tapi bukan di sini, tidak di manipal. di sini fanarosli menjadi active semacam pasal apa, i'm not sure. yang sebenarnye, aku sangat rindu nak main netball, basketball and handball yg satu mase dulu pernah menjadi kegemaran aku. aku jugak rindu nak masuk acara balapan such as sprint 100m n 200m, tak dilupa acara lompat kijang yg merupakan kepakaran n menggenggam trofi olahragawati sekolah. sumpah rindu. dan 4 tahun di mrsm n kolej telah disia-siakan begitu saja sampai badan jadi lembap n unfit, lelah datang macam tak menyempat2. sedih.

sebab tu kat sini macam sukarela nak join futsal bila miyn mintak ganti kappa masuk futsal walaupun pada mulenye sgtla berat hati ni nak turun pektis. lagipun takde basic futsal. sepak bola macam setahun sekali je kot. tengok bola memang taklaa kan. tapi berpaksikan prinsip kelas kami, ''kita main just for fun, so enjoy the game" (prinsip orang yg confirm kalah, =P) so aku pun turunla main. and it turned out very fun!! masa mula2 pektis penat gila sebab asek gelak, menjerit2, pastu lagi banyak lari kutip bola from sepak bola, tapi lastly kitorg dpt jugakla main dgn penuh gaya. =P

bak kata miyn, kamilah pasukan (bidan terjun) futsal BDS

isma (striker), aien (striker), najaa (goalkeeper), me (center, ade ke position center dlm futsal? ahh p mampuih), miyn (defender)

takleh blah nak jugak tulis posisi masing2, gaya mcm pro je. teehee.

walaupun tak dapat score satu gol pun, n kalah dalam semua games, tapi kami tetap happy. happy sebab dapat experience baru, happy sebab main takde nak tarik tudung, happy sebab main dgn aman (?), happy sebab walaupun main cam hampeh, tapi gol takdela bolos banyak kali, maksimum bolos 2 kali je =) and happy sebab kawan2 sudi turun bagi semangat even kitorg main macam noob tahap dewa. =)

muka happy walaupun terpaksa main dlm panas terik dan kalah kpd team 27

malam tu pulak kena substitue senior main netball. mule2 mcm serba-salah nak main sebab kaki dah injured masa main futsal. ade pendarahan di bawah kuku atau pun bahasa medicnya kita panggil nail bed. sakit dy toksah nak cakap, asal tersepak benda je, confirm meraung satu bilik. sembahyang pun kena duduk. sobss. tapi sebab rinduu sgt nak main netball, aku main jugak. p mampuihlaa kaki tu nak sakit ke apa.

coach suruh celup kaki dlm ais masa injured, sejuknya tuhan saja yg tahu.

kau tgk muke kappa, macam suka je aku injured.

the azab came the next day. pendarahan (bunyi mcm sgt kritikal,, haha) bawah kuku jadi lagi teruk and bertukat menjadi kehitaman. huu. pengumpulan lactic acid due to excessive anaerobic respiration of muscle fibres dan oxygen debt yang masih belum dilangsaikan menjadikan kaki mengalami muscle cramps yg sgt dasat up to the point where i couldn't even raise my leg. sakit gila, jalan pun hinjut2 mcm OKU. nampak sgt my myoglobin amount dlm skeletal muscle masih tak mampu untuk meng-supply enough oxygen for the rapid contraction of muscles masa aku lari2 macam org sawan atas padang simen futsal. ok sila tampar aku skrg for being nerd.

jadi konklusinya aku mahu menjadi aktif di sini. tiada lagi sluggish lifestyle di mana tido dan rehat menjadi prioriti utama. doakan aku berjaya, kawan. zaaaassss!! *hilang tiba-tiba dgn efek asap*

smooches~

20th birthday

2010-11-03T01:56:00.012+08:00

28th October 2010 marked my 20th birthday and this is the first time i celebrated my birthday away from malaysia. hoho bangga sekejap. it took me 20 freaking years to finally stepped my (currently) highly sensitive, severely infected and injured feet on other country. kesian, i know.

well, celebrating my birthday here was still fun as i'm still surrounded by the same circle of close friends and friends from my college. i was throwned 2 suprise birthday parties along with 2 birthday cakes. terharu i sebab dah lama org tak beli kek besar2 for my birthday. selalu dpt 1 slice cake je sobss sobss.

mula2 sekali dapat kezutan from kak ummu, my kakak usrah. wuu sumpah malu+terharu masa org nyanyi lagu happy birthday kat tgh2 foodcourt. anyway, thanks a lot kak ummu! =)

next, dapat unexpected 2 slices of cake from hazman. thanks hazman! =)

the next day, my classmates and others friends membuat kezutan yg hampir gagal kat foodcourt jugak. comel sgt tgk diorg susah-payah plan suprise birtday party for me. i'm touched =) i love u guyz to bits and pieces.

bertuah punya kawan2 tulis birtday wish in hindi? tamil? kannhada?

thanks so much also to myrajemi and kappa mamma nim for the nan cheese treat at dollop. hehee.

i don't have any particular wish for this year's birthday, it just that i hope that me and my friends will do well here in india and melaka in future, finishing our 5 years of dentistry course with flying colours. also praying hard to Allah everyday semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan dan perjalanan hidup sebagai seorang pelajar dentistry.

smooches~

taman hitam

2010-10-29T03:21:00.002+08:00

bila mau buat comeback??

smooches~

sapa kata dentistry senang?

2010-10-27T01:14:00.006+08:00

who said dentistry is easy as compared to medicine course?

we have to endure the same pain, the same agony, in fact a more severe suffering as our course does not only requires memorizing, but also a lot of artistic talents and manipulations as i've said before.

we have to paint,

we also have to convert these wax blocks

into these *nicely* carved maxillary central and lateral incisors a.k.a your right and left gigi kapak and also gigi sebelah gigi kapak. =_=''

seriously, its not easy.

and this is one of the risk of choosing dentistry as your future career. my friend's finger got cut when she's using the plaster knife during prosthodontics practicals. pity her =(

so pls, don't underestimate this course although i firmly know that dentists will not be saved and given special priorities during earthquake because yeah, who needs a dentist during an earthquake? everyone will be begging for a doctor to save their life.

don't ever said that we're just a bunch of losers who couldn't make it to the MBBS course. memang nak kena pelempang sebijik.

but do u know, sakit gigi is given the second place in the top three list of the most excruciating pain one can ever experience?

smooches~

introducing my new place

2010-10-21T23:14:00.011+08:00

pictures stolen from myra azmi and najaa basir's facebook.

pictures berterabur, tak ikut order.

drive slowly or u'll be dead / drive dead slow, man!

view from my apartment

my expensive apartment

me and farah in front of the apartment

at mangalore, eating expensive western food once in a very while

our first trip to mangalore

my class is at the basement of the below building

manipal's main building, nampak cantik credits to myra

the food court, filled with delicious and cheap food

there's this one shopping mall at mangalore that has cartoon drawings all over its wall. teringat kat cartoon kampung boy tiba2.

when i have my own camera, i'll introduce to u guyz many interesting things here in india. =)

smooches~

new life

2010-10-17T21:15:00.003+08:00

hai semua! sebenarnye ade banyak gile bende nak crite pasal hidup kat india ni tapi mcm malas gila plus banyak sgt kena study tapi masa untuk tgk cter korea masih ada =P

1. of my university

or should i say, college? sebab nama penuh dy melaka-manipal medical college. i'm doing a twinning project by the manipal university whereby i need to do my first 2 years here in manipal and the subsequent 3 years back in melaka. i'm doing dentistry despite my university only got 'medical' on its name.

2. of my classes and studies

lecturers here are nice but their english slang are quite menghiburkan. at least terbukak jugakla biji mata dalam kelas kan. and we're seated in the lecture hall and labs according to our roll number (ID number). tadika aku pun tak buat mcmni dulu. at first i was among the sad backbenchers but now dah tukar class, so dpt seat tgh. suka2!

i'm taking 6 subjects which are dental anatomy and histology, dental materials, preclinical prosthodontics, anatomy, biochemistry and physiology. i'm fonder towards the dental subjects as compared to anatomy. head and neck anatomy is fine but not general anatomy. since my class has embarked a month ago, i've never study any bit of biochemistry and physiology because dental anatomy and anatomy are both a very time-consuming subjects what more with tests ans viva every week.

the practical classes are fun yet they made me suffered due to my lowly art talents that have been buried deep down beneath the earth since my primary school. carving, painting, polishing and etc really got on my nerves sometimes but at the same time i enjoyed doing all those artistic thingy.

3. of food

food here are awesome, delicious and cheap! i guess this is the advantage of living here. kat malaysia mana nk dpt makan sehari complete from breakfast to dinner tak sampai 10 ringgit. eventho bgnan2 n kedai2 kat sini mmg buruk, tapi food dy memang wallah!!

4. of homesick and tearful days

during my first2 weeks here in manipal, i cried almost everyday whenever i miss my family, especially hijjaz. at that time, i wish time will fly really fast so that i can go back to malaysia as soon as possible. but now, i don't feel like that anymore. with my great friends here, i wish to explore more of india sebab yelah kan, pasni bila lagi nk stg sini. fyi, i'm not going back this february instead i wanna go travel all over india with my friends.

5. of tuk-tuk

dulu hanya boleh tgk dlm cter hindustan tapi sekarang dh boleh merasa naik sendiri tuk-tuk ni. mula2 naik mcm excited gilaa tapi lama2 jadi takut sebab seriously, naik tuk-tuk kat sini mcm a suicidal attempt. tapi memang murahh sgt2 naik tuk-tuk ni. diorg selambe je redah jalan tak tgk kiri kanan even ade lori besar tgh lalu time tu. mmg dh byk kali menjerit2 tp driver dy buat bodo je.

oklah, dah taktau nak cter ape. lain kali sambung lagi. babai!

smooches~

my parents

2010-10-13T20:46:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to mak and abah!!!

fyi, their birthday are of the same date; 13th October. tahun je lain.

your daughter here is missing both of u there in Malaysia.

smooches~

rindu

2010-10-12T02:23:00.002+08:00

rindu sangat kat budak gemok ini yang tak pernah mengaku dy rindu kat saya padahal saya tahu dy rindu saya sebab haritu dy cakap kat mak saya "adik rindu kak long laa". sedih tapi tak nak nangis.

smooches~

bagada

2010-10-08T20:48:00.002+08:00

hai ppl. this post is for u all to know and learn a pure indian cuisine which is scrumptious enough to make me (not you) drool whenever i think about it.

well, what i'm holding in the picture above is not a plain ikan goreng, its a bagada. don't ask me the meaning of it, i don't know. one thing i certain about bagada is that it was so delicious that i can ratah it sampai menghisap tulang ikan-apa-tah tu. over right?

thats all for now.

smooches~

myrajemi

2010-10-07T02:15:00.004+08:00

zaman braces myrajemi

zaman braces-less myrajemi

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELIEST FRIEND MYRA INNESSA AZMI!!

STAY HOT STAY NICE STAY BLUR STAY SMART

as i said before, i lap u more than i lap bagada.

sorry yang, no pressie, no fireworks (?), no big celebration, but your friends are always with u to celebrate it anytime, anywhere when we're free from all those wax carvings, paintings, viva-ing, remembering all the intricate terms etc this weekend. =)

what is a bagada? mantap weh rasa dy. mcm ikan kukus. *iklan*

smooches~

i wanna go home

2010-10-01T01:12:00.001+08:00

rindu gila rumah, family, and semua2 laaaaaa. dah dpt sesuaikan diri, but still takleh nak hilangkan rasa homesick tu. mcm loser gila. i'm such a weakling. sobsobs.

classes were okay, lecturers were nice, things were like super duper cheap here, food was okay, water also okay, friends were fantastic, apartment was awesome except that its very expensive, auto (tuk-tuk) was a very fun yet suicidal ride.

what else?

i wanna go home but i must be strong.

smooches~

cliche

2010-09-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

penat weh jawab soalan "apa perasaan nak fly g india ni?"

satu. cuak sebab first time naik kapal terbang. MAS lagi tu. terima kasih MARA. MARA is the best!

dua. sedih sebab lepas ni dah mula balik lifestyle bangun awal2 pagi, tido lewat2 malam sebab stay up depan buku tebal.

tiga. gembira sebab akhirnya dapat menjejakkan kaki ke tanah negara lain. even singapore and sempadan siam pun aku tak penah sampai lagi. blame abah.

empat. risau sebab takut tak dapat sesuaikan diri dgn gaya hidup (makan, hygiene, cuaca) di sana.

lima. excited sebab tak sabar nak start degree. saya rindu buku2 tebal dan segala proses penghafalan yang membunuh axons dan dendrites.

enam. tolong jangan tanya aku apa perasaan nak berpisah ngan family and bf. aku makan korang nanti.

smooches~

raya 2010

2010-09-12T15:14:00.006+08:00

this is the first time my family didn't went back to our kampung to celebrate raya. nasib bek mak tak menangis HAHA. well, raya in our very own house was not that bad after all. we still had fun and never fail to stuff our bloated tummies with manyyyyyyyyyy delicious foods that u can only found during raya.

abah dgn lemang kebanggaannya. first time masak lemang sendiri katakan.

hari last puasa ialah hari jadi my baby bro, hijjaz!!

cerita apa pulak kat tv belakang tu?

harusla gembira dpt duit raya even umur dah 20 =D

adakah anda perasan sesuatu pada gambar di atas?

ya? tidak?

yaaaaa. baju saya ngan mak saya sama sebijik cuma saiz dan tudung je yg lain. =P

my brownish family =)) kau tgk hijjaz mmg spoiler habis.

masa g raya rumah jiran2 semua org ingat saya anak second. nmpak sgt i kecik and muda. heheeeee. btw, saya sudah reti pakai shawl dgn jayanyaaa!!! clap clap clap.

smooches~

org yg tak suka korean stuffs, don't bother

2010-09-11T14:42:00.002+08:00

well, dh warning awal2 kan. reason is, saya ter-came across this one blog yg mengutuk habis-habisanla kami si peminat2 korean entertainment industry ni. kata diorg plastiklah, jambulah, out of fashionlah, suara tak sedaplah, menari poyola, pakai glove sebelah je mcm org retarded lah.

WELL KAU LOSER, SEMUA ORANG ADA TASTE MASING2 AKU TAK BISING PUN BILA KAU MEROYAN DGN BENDE YG KAU MINAT.

pahamla wey, tak semua org suka bende yg sama.

mcm aku penah promote kat mcdee so that dy minat suju tapi tuptup dy g minat ss501 la pulak kan. and dy pun hari2 menyanyi lagu justin bieber dlm bilik buat show percuma tp aku sampai skrg tak minat satu pun lagu jutsin bieber. tapi kitorg cool je, sebab pahamla kan taste masing2 lain.

even aku minat gila bab kat korean stuffs aku still tgk How I Met Your Mother, aku still tau vampire diaries season 2 released kelmarin, aku still tau main cast Big Bang Theory menang anugerah pelakon komedi lelaki terbaik, aku still layan lagu I Love The Way U Lie, aku still gugu-gagaing over Josh Duhamel and Faizal Tahir, SO KAU JGN NAK CAKAP AKU TAKDE LIFE.

current playlist.

lee seung hee - fox rain (ost my gf is a nine-tailed fox)
lee seong chol - geu saram (ost king of baker, kim tak goo)
t-ara - like the first time (lagu lama)
narsha - mamma mia
super junior - no other
dbsk - mirotic (say whatever, mmg aku lambat)
super junior - coagulation

smooches~

on the list

2010-09-11T02:08:00.002+08:00

weekly k-dramas on the list that have to be streamed online for days due to the super slow internet connection, screw celcom line in my housing area. got only 2-3 bars. not good enough/

- king of baker kim tak goo , 5 more episodes to end
- my girlfriend is a nine-tailed fox, 8 more episodes to end
- playful kiss - haven't started yet
- jewel in the palace - re-watch because its my all-time fav k-drama. 70 episodes to be streamed. *dies

i have an awesome raya albeit i didn't go back to my kampung.

smooches~

eid mubarak

2010-09-09T22:32:00.002+08:00

gelak2=gilak2 ingin mengucapkan

selamat hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua umat islam di seluruh dunia

dan selamat bercuti kepada warga malaysia.

dgn tulus ikhlas meminta maaf sekiranya kalian ada terguris hati dgn tulisan2 di laman ini.

salam~

angka 11

2010-09-06T00:12:00.001+08:00

i found this from here and decided to share it with everyone. it's a nice blog btw, banyak info islam and info2 lain yg menarik.

The Secret behind the number 11 - Pretty Chilling
Read to the bottom. Try it out. I did and I got goose bumps
If you are a sceptical person - still read on as it's actually very interesting! !

This is actually really freaky!! (Mainly the end part, but read it first)
1) New York City has 11 letters
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb has 11 letters. (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993)
4) George W Bush has 11 letters.

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets interesting:
1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers , was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 =11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11

Sheer coincidence. .?! Read on and make
up your own mind:
1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254.
2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year.
Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognized symbol for the US , after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Koran, the Islamic holy book:

"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The
wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah while some
of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the
Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace."

That verse is number 9.11 of the Koran.
Unconvinced about all of this Still ..?!

Try this and see how you feel afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:
1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers .
2. Highlight the Q33 NY.
3. Change the font size to 48.
4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS 1
What do you think now?!!

smooches~

kami perlukan seorg yg terer masak

2010-09-05T22:23:00.008+08:00

jumaat lepas saya pergi ke KL (again) untuk mengambek visa yg rupe-rupenye hanyelah sehelai sticker buruk yg berharga rm285.00. tak apa, nnt boleh claim mara. mara akan pulangkan duit abah saya lebih kurang dlm emmm......6 bulan?

masa beli tiket utk ke KL, saya lupa KL adalah tempat maharaja jalan jem. jadinya bas yg sepatutnya sampai di bukit jalil jam 4.30 menjadi 5.40 ptg sebab jalan jem. semua pun nak balik kampung, jadi tak boleh merungut lebih2. kita kena faham keterujaan org yg mahu pulang ke desa tercinta.

dalam bas hati berdenyut2 (?) berdoa supaya kitorg (saya, aien, ping) sempat tiba di visa centre di masjid jamek sebelum 6.30 ptg. sampai saja bukit jalil, terus bergegas naik lrt, jalan laju2 meredah org yg sibuk shopping kat masjid jamek sambil buat muke garang so that orang bagi laluan luas2. hehe.sampai2 sana tgk kat pintu dah ada sign 'closed' tapi kitorg masuk jugak ah tak kira datang dari jauh kot. pastu ade sorg miss ni buat muka garang and tak puas hati ahh aku tak kisah aku nak visa aku jugak. nasib baik dy baik hati, dy bagi jugak visa kitorg. lepas kitorg keluar je, terus dy tutup lampu, kunci pintu mangga lock semua. perli ke apa? takpa, asalkan dpt jugak amek visa. phew.

lepas tu kelam kabut solat kat masjid kecik ikut skala najaa basir yg pada skala kami amatlah besar jugak sebenarnya. kemudian kalut2 pegi mcD tgk2 tempat full tapi nak jugak mkn spicy ciken mcDeluxe tu so beratur panjang2 pun i sanggup. sudahnya kitorg berbuka kat kaki lima, duduk berderet kat depan RHB bank mcm pengemis tp pengemis yg style punya la. takde comot momot punya. nasib baik takde lagu raya berkumandang, kalau tak mesti dah menitis air mata.

lepas tu naurah amek kitorg, dan kami semua bergerak ke rumah syasya di sungai buloh yg sangat besarrrr dan lawaaa. mmg jaw dropping lah tgk rumah dy. lepas dah puas masuk setiap bilik, usha sana, usha sini, jakun merata-rata, kitorg g mandi kat swimming pool! huuyeeahh best sgt! usik2 kappa mcm nak rak hahahahaha ksian kappa yg cumel.

malam tu takde sape nak masak jadi ramai2 memenuhi dapur yg malap dan gelap untuk masak roti telur and nasi goreng. aien and ping buat roti telur, sedapppp!!! nasi goreng, errrr, sedapla jugak tu pun pakai perencah. asalkan ada rasa. hahaha first time masak nasi goreng sama2. sebelum ni asek msk spagetii ja. lepas sahur kul 2.30 pagi, ade sesi luahan perasaan tak puas hati terhadap mara. tp takleh bising2, nnt mara tarik balik scholarship.

our first nasi goreng cina. nampak sedap kan? KAN????

esoknya g manipal di mana hanya menghabiskan duit minyak dan tol syasya dan naurah. memang tak patut manipal wajibkan kehadiran. jauh2 kitorg datang, dy cakap psl bende yg kitorg dah tau lama dah. hmmph sgt sakit hati. pastu kene paksa buat survey bodo saya biar kosong je part soalan 'why medicine'. aku dah bosan jawab soalan tu tau tak!

petang tu kitorg pegi ke bukit bintang, jalan2 kat sungei wang and pavilion. ramaiii sgt org kat pavi ingatkan semua org pun kaya nk shopping kat sana rupa-rupanya ade signature session dgn artis. ada faizal tahir (woot woot!!!) , stacy, aril, akim, mawi, shila, syahir, fara fauzana, black, TOMOK (aien sungguh gembiraaa dy pegi depan sekali semata2 nak amek gambar hoho).

hai black, abah saya minat sgt dgn lagu sofea jane. btw, awak tak hitam sgt pun.

tomok main pejam-celik mata khas untuk aien. =P

faizal tahir yg dah hitam, baru balik dari palestin. bravo =)

dah, malas nak cerita lagi. selasa ni nak pegi KL. (again)

p/s: thanks so much to naurah and syasya!!

smooches~

i'm not ready

2010-08-30T14:46:00.003+08:00

one day bf asked me,

bf : dah ready belum?
me : (ready apa ni? ready nak kawen ke?) err, belum. (i tak pandai msk lagi). jap, ready apa ni?
bf : ready nak g india laaaa.
me : BELUM READY LAGIII. I LAP MALAYSIA VERY MUCHHHHH!!!!! (exaggerated)

happy 53rd independence day, Malaysia.

walaupun saya tak sepatriotik mana, saya tetap sayang Malaysia. saya tak suka bila baca berita, ade insan2 tak educated yg tak reti nak selesaikan masalah secara diplomasi dan harmoni memijak2 bendera Malaysia.

nasib baik saya cuma tinggalkan Malaysia selama 2 tahun. nanti takdela gila meroyan rindu roti canai, nasi lemak, tomyam, teh tarik, rendang, baik saya akan berhenti di sini saja.

sungguh tak ready lagi nak fly.

smooches~

i'm a businesswoman

2010-08-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

sebab saya bz tak ingat dunia minggu ni dan minggu akan datang. tak apela, merasa pengalaman jd org bz. mmg stress sebab byk silap isi borang. guideline yg diberi sgtla brief and menyesal tak tanya pn. ayuslina habis- habisan aritu.

kredit mnggu ni pun habis mengalir mcm air sebab hari2 mesti call org nak tanya itu ini. semua pn tak sure, semua pn taktau, semua pn takut nak call pn ayuslina. saya dh call dy 2 kali dan sudah pun dimarahi sebab salah isi borang. kene sabar jugak sebab bukan senang org nak bg kita pinjam 400000++ mcm tu je.

paling sedih, duit mengalir mcm whatever yg mengalir lagi laju drp air. i cant think of one. whatever. zaman sekarang ni semua procedure kene bayar ratus2. bayar itu ini. harap2 mara cepat byr duit claim.

lagi sedih drp paling sedih, kene ulang alik g KL setiap minggu. naseb bek dok perak, so dlm 2 jam stgh smpaila. tp kalau dh pegi tiap2 minggu mau pengsan. dahla bulan pose sebegini nak jalan merata-rata pulak. dah selalu sgt stay rumah org smpai naik malu dah muka ni. sobs sobs jd anak perantauan.

dahla, babai.

smooches~

half

2010-08-22T16:06:00.001+08:00

when ur other half is having a hard time, u'll be affected too. i'm sad and my hopes are shattered into pieces. but still, i want the best for him. so that his dreams can become a reality someday. i'll pray for u. u always have me by your side.

smooches~

boleh mengembang sekembang-kembangnya

2010-08-19T00:53:00.002+08:00

tajuk di atas adalah hasil terjemahan saya terhadap tajuk movie yg saya baru tgk 2 hari lepas, The Expandables.

saya yg beria-ria mengajak bf tgk cter ni sebab kat fb ramai yg ckp best. silap besar saya tak baca synopsis cter ni dulu before tgk. excited nk tgk pun sebab ade jet li and steve austin. yeah at first i thought who the hell is this austin?? but when i watched this movie i almost screamed:

OMG ITS THE FREAKING STONE COLD STEVE AUSTIN Y'ALL!!!

sumpah rindu gila tgk dy gusti2 and ber-WWF dgn the rock, triple H, kane, undertaker, chric jericho (hensem kot jericho nih) and thank u so much sylvester stallone for including the gusti2 moment at the end of this movie. terubat rindu i. btw, stone cold is still bald. hehe comel je.

jet li was so ketot in this movie but he caused me to burst into laughter everytime his scenes were up on the screen sebab comel sgt kalau nak dicomparekan dgn mamat2 gergasi tu. well, Asian rocks dude!

that's not the main point actually. anyway, i don't like this movie because it was full of bloods, bullets, gusti ganas2 punya, guns, knifes, bombs, explosives, tortures, kepala pecah, KILL! KILL! DIE! DIE!. god, i was closing my eyes a lot more than i opened them. tak suka ganas2 kecuali part jet li comel. sobs.

smooches~