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"The nasty things people say behind your back are like poisoned arrows. But, thankfully, the words people say while hiding have no strength. So, those arrows can't pierce your heart. However, the most foolish thing you can do is pick up those arrows that have fallen to the ground and then, pierce your own heart with those arrows."           
                    
                                                                                                                  -Baek Seung Chan

Ingat sentiasa, Parihana.

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BABY BABY jigeum cheoreomman areumdawo jullae neon

sigani jinado naega seollel su itge

BABY BABY neon sideulji ma igijeogin nal wihae

geu moseup geudaero neon geudaero yeoyaman hae~

Baby baby can you stay beautiful like you are right now?

So my heart can race even after time passes

Baby baby don’t wither, this is all for the selfish me

You have to stay just as you are right now~

 Bae Bae by BigBang on repeat~

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"Mungkin sukar untuk difahami kerana tak tecapai dek akalmu" - Elyana

The reason why other people can never truly understand my situation and also why i can't really understand theirs'. 

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Salam.

I never like long distance running. I used to be a sprinter. I've joined a few marathons in my secondary school because i can run that far as my stamina was tiptop at that time, never because i like it. I prefer aerobics and circuit training a hundred times more, even when i know from my experience that the fastest way to lose weight is by jogging.

Starting from end of last year, i started joining marathons as part of my effort to lose weight and reduce my bod fat percentage, also to remain fit. But now i'm not that good as i used to be. Selalu ja jalan in between sbb seriously penat nak mampuihh. Sometimes even while running i thought to myself "why did i join this??"

I almost forgot how much i love sports and regret it so much that i let 2 years passed by without any active participation in games, run or physical adventures. I regretted not joining aerobic regularly from my third year even when i know i love aerobics to the core since kms days. I've finally found something that i love doing that no matter how tired and busy i am with clinic and labworks, I will go for it anytime.

I'm hoping i can maintain this even when i'm in a long holiday after i finish school. Too bad aku tak tau any active aerobic club in Ipoh.

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Salam.

When someone is on the wrong side and you're the one who pointed it out, that does not mean you are on the right side. Reflect yourself first. Especially when that someone is of higher status that deserves the utmost respect from you. I'm not on the right side either, but i know my limit and my place. Put aside your immaturity and temper for a while, and think properly. Because this stuff is not only about you and your dissatisfaction. It will affect everyone.

My coward opinion.

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This post-op pain is killing me. What's worse is there's nothing that i can do about it. Painkiller didn't work. It's been 4 days already. Yesterday it's so painful to the point that i lost my sleep. Just now tears just coming out because no matter how hard i put pressure on that area, pain is still there. I don't even know what is causing me pain actually. It spreads over my right palate but there's nothing over there. No lesion, no bleeding, no ulcer, nothing. Is it dry socket? I'm so scared. I don't even know how to describe the pain to my friends so i just told them pain is still there. I'm sure they don't know how to respond because there's nothing they can do so i stopped complaining to them. I don't want to tell my mom because for sure i'll cry like crazy. Its really scary because i've never experienced this before. My previous impactions had only cause me pain for 2 days and trismus for a week. Not a continuous throbbing painful sensations like this. I'm so distracted. It's always there. The pain never leaves. Monday pls come faster..

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Salam.

My new year was awesome except for the crappy fireworks and annoyingly loud vuvuezela. Last weekend was filled with nothing but happiness. I just love it when we're in our own little world minding our own business. You know, when the world revolves only around me and him. Away from all the work burden, ppl's judgement and my lonely room. Sitting in front of a colourful fountain for hours discussing our new year resolution; both personal and for our relationship. Planning our future life, slowly but surely. Feeling grateful that we've come this far through thick and thin. May 2015 bring more colour and happiness into our life, despite me knowing how stressful it will be. 

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There's only one problem that comes with my k-drama obsession.

I'll fall in love with the hero. hahahaha! or most commonly the second hero *secondherosyndrome*. Usually the madness will end when the drama ends. Then i'll switch to another drama hero ;p

Anyhoo, now I've got my eyes on Ji Chang Wook. So bermulalah era *again* stalking him on any SNS, youtube tumblr, anywhere that has a bit of him. teeheeheee. Handsome oiii!! Sebab dia cool gila dlm drama Healer tu *crazyfan*

Tak senonoh punya perangai.

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Every rose has its thorn.
Every rose has its thorn.
Every rose has its thorn.

                                                        Lee Hi, Rose #np

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Finally, the week is over.

Feels so good to lie down on my bed after finishing my work in the lab and clinic. Just golek2 here and there for hours without having to force myself to get up for futsal or dance practice until midnight. Tapi aku sangat enjoy kedua2nya. Bila ada minat, tak rasa terbeban sgt nak datang practice tu.

So many emotional turmoils and resentments i felt in my heart these past few weeks. Of course, perasaan aku sahaja yg mungkin oversensitip padahal tak ada apa2 sangat pun. Its my own problem yang tak berapa nak reti in dealing with other ppl's attitude. Tambah bila teman bercerita tengah busy nak exam so takboleh nak kacau tiba2 buat lawatan mengejut ke Shah Alam. So for the first time, i took my car keys and went for a drive at night just because i feel so stuffy and suffocated from burying so many feelings and words inside of me. Tapi bahaya actually sebabnya aku tak fokus time drive.

I miss my family, especially mak. balik haritu tak dan sembang gossip lama2 sbb sibuk dgn wedding kawan. Now depa suma tgh syok bercuti tinggai aku sorg2. I miss my bf too. So much. Cepatlaa New Year datang. Weekend kt kolej tak best sebenarnya. Nasibla aku tgh byk kerja skrg. Buku pn dh lama tak pegang. I just need my cakes tomorrow then i think i'll be fine. :D