Friday, April 30, 2010

i want my mom now

sudah selesai majlis doa restu. penat menangis2 walaupun mak takde di sisi sebab bila tgk orang lain peluk mak dorg rapat2, aotomatik airmata mengalir mcm air terjun. terharu sebab mak kawan2 yg lain pun doakan kejayaan kita semua. =)

but paling tak tahan bile mintak maaf dgn kawan2. mmg banyak gila dosa dah buat. mengumpat sana sini. bergosip siang malam. harap 0-0 la semua pasni and dpt mulakn hubungan baik dgn semua org. harapnya tak terlambat.

the saddest point was when some of my friends hugged me and said, fana, mintak halal semua ilmu yg ko ajar aku. masa tu serius rasa sebak sebab penghargaan yg korg bagi sgt tinggi nak dibandingkan dgn ilmu yg tak seberape yg aku share ngan korg. but i really hope whatever i have taught u guyz will benefit u in the finals later on. =)

then g jumpe all the teachers, mintak restu semua2. terharu jugak sebab cikgu yg tak ajar pun sempat peluk2 bagi semangat and bagi tips utk exam nnt. tak terbalas rasanya jasa baik semua cikgu kms ni. thank u tcer amim sebab bagi personal card tu. so sweet la kan. =)


so ppl, lets strive hard for our finals!

smooches~

Saturday, April 24, 2010

berkabung


tadi baru pas tgk gaya rambut terbaru eunhyuk for suju's 4th album. apekah tak seswainya ngan diaaaa!!!! sobs tak cute dah mcm gangster je. =(

ade ELF ckp this 4th album will be the last album by suju sebab semua pun ade hala tuju maseng2 pasni. grrrrr sukati je, jgnla berpecah, pls. =((

pastu ade ELF ckp jgk maybe akan ade exploration of human body 2 pas suju launched the 4th album. harap2 jadi kenyataan. =)

smooches~

Friday, April 16, 2010

tak bersyukurkah aku


just now mr. boyfie read my blog. then he called, saying that i'm not being grateful. perghhh kene sound siot sebab kutuk M***. hahahahaha. u memang kelakarla bie.

well, he said that compared to him, i'm far more lucky to have everything sponsored by mara. he got no sponsorship and he's risking his own future to take medicine in manipal. he missed a spot last year and that forced him to wait for another year. i pity him, and he only have me by his side because his family didnt want him to go overseas.

so people, stop asking me when he will fly, would yah? because it hurts me so deep, what more his feelings. i knew u very well, u monster. u always hide ur hardships from me but eventually i'll get to know it. ngeh2. hebat kan i?

so yes, i'm not being grateful. but as i said before, all my rantings about my placement ends here in this blog. mayb i'll share my feelings with my friends but not as aggressive as before.


p/s: sumpah malas nak buat assignment abah. but i need the money. grr.

smooches~

Thursday, April 15, 2010

gave up



*warning- post penuh unsur benci dan bahasa kasar*

although it seems that i already gave up my hope on going to universities other than manipal, but silently i prayed hard in my heart so that there's still chances.

but now everything is confirmed. kau tau hati aku sakit gila. sebab apa? sebab dulu kau tabur janji macam2. now its all bullshits.

kau tau sapa kau? aku rasa kau tau. kau tau, kesian gila cikgu aku, sanggup g india pakai duit sendiri nak survey uni untuk kitorg tapi apa kau buat? kau reject paperworks dy macam tu je kan.

budak medic kau boleh bagi chances g UK, Czech tapi budak dentistry even uni2 dlm india nak bagi variasi sikit pun kau tak lepaskan. apahal kau ni? aku rasa even uni2 kat india tu takdela semahal uni kat UK tu. at least ada 2,3 choices of uni pun takpe. ni kau g lambakkan kitorg semua g sana. lainkali, kalau kau rasa macam tak boleh nak handle budak2 dentistry ni, dont offer the course on the first place la. serius aku rasa tersisih gila.

kau tau mak aku sedih. aku lagi sedih bila mak aku sedih tapi aku takleh nak buat ape semua pasal kaula. aku taktau nak explain mcmn kat mak aku. shit gila tau tak.

tapi apa pun aku boleh cakap dlm blog ni jela. sebab aku still guna duit kau and kau still tanggung aku belajar. cumanya aku geram. lepas aku dah lepaskan geram ni aku okaylah. syukur jela dengan rezeki yg Allah bagi. mesti ade hikmah di sebalik semua ni kan. and thanks kat kau, aku still boleh fly. at least aku still dapat buat mak bapak aku bangga ngan aku.




i'm okay now. everything ends here. nak kutuk aku, go on. i'm a human with countless flaws, and so do you.

smooches~


Sunday, April 11, 2010

new playlist

kara - lupin
snsd - run devil run
super junior - marry u
beast - shock
kara - wanna
brown eyed girls - sign
super junior - its you
T-ara - time to love
4minute - muzik
kara - if u wanna
FT island - raining
f(x) - chu
SS501 - deja vu
SHINee - jojo
super junior - she's gone
2PM - tired of waiting
brown eyed girls - abracadabra

addicted to girls kpop la sekarang. suju cepatla keluar fourth album. rindu!

smooches~

roomate busuk





eventho ko tak sekurus aku,

eventho ko tak secomel aku,

eventho ko tak sepopular aku,

eventho ko tak sehebat aku,

eventho ko besar cam giant,

eventho ko ade kasut gergasi,

eventho ko rampas kasut putih momoe,

eventho ko selalu kutuk eunhyuk aku,

eventho ko still single,

eventho ko nerd and skema,


always remember that aku sayang ko lebih!! =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADIHAH YUSOFF YANG AYU KONONNYA!!!!

thanks for sticking to me as a friend and sorry for all the hardship that i've put u through.

jangan menangis malam2 mengenangkan nasib ko yang dah tua. =P

smooches~


Sunday, April 4, 2010

happy birthday anchovy




happy birthday eunhyukkie!!

you'll always be my anchovy forever. =)

smooches~