2010

2010 is a wonderful and meaningful year for me. i've undergone some minor and major transformations in me throughout this one year period. so excuse this long post of cherishing my own sweet and bitter moments in my life.

january

the commencement of semester 4 of IB in MCS. as the hellish semester (sem 3) ended with me completing nothing on the IB-suicidal-assignment list, the nerdiest sem came mercilessly to replace it. my EE was terrible, my TOK essay merewang ke Mekah but luckily i didn't have to redo my IAs. pheww. that's a lot of stress u know. ada banyak pergaduhan n misunderstanding among my peers disebabkan IA ni.

february

still struggling to complete my EE and TOK essay. ink printer sampai habis buat print EE sampai 3 kali sebab asyik kena reject je. when i submitted both assignments to the respective lecturers, rasa macam ada satu batu besau dah terangkat from bahu. the feeling at that time is just...undescribable.

march

IRP started. sitting in the same spot in my favourite group in the dark 'cave', facing the same face and doing the same routine everyday. coffee DS adalah mantap tapi sedih sebab cikgu Azizah tak bagi bawak minum kat meja. subjek lain main bantai ja bukak kedai kopi kat meja group. membuat berlemon-lemon past years sampai dah nak muntah, tapi sebab ada kawan2, jadi sangat enjoy bila study.

celebrated his 20th birthday. =)

april

IRP session was still going on. then, the IB trial. first time dapat grade 4 sepanjang buat IB sebab mathematics punya soalan tahap killer dalam cerita Saw. memang kejam dan psychotic. tapi overall still satisfactory. alhamdullilah =)

may

Final IB examination. i was quite confident in answering the papers but i knew i'm not gonna get a 7 for mathematics. macam harapan gila laaaa. masa bulan ni, dah start nak berpisah dgn kawan2, semua pun rasa sedih especially bila dah tak dapat nak tido sebilik dgn mcdee, dah takleh nak gila2 dgn mira, dah takleh nak layan k-pop ngan dayang and many more.

fourth album super junior was out! muehehe

and yeah, our 3rd year anniversary =)

june

proses menggemokkan diri di rumah. duduk kat rumah bosan gila taktau nak buat apa, so masa dihabiskan dgn pegi ke lost world of tambun untuk berjumpa dgn kawan2 lama. tidak lupa proses belajar memasak, belajar menjahit, belajar jaga anak, pegi kursus kahwin...NOT.

july

IB results were out and sadly, my batch didn't perform out that well because the examiners were bad mood when they're marking our paper because their babies won't stop crying in the middle of the night and their nescafe couldn't help them to stay awake until 3 in the morning. sheeeshhhh kidding okay.

but again, alhamdullilah my result was okay except for the unexpected 6 in biology.

august

graduation day!! first time pegi hari anugerah cemerlang without my parents. sedih naik pentas dua kali tapi tak ada orang nak tumpang bangga. tapi seronok sebab dapat jumpa all the lecturers yg sgt dirindui and of course, my beloved batchmates. =)

dah mula proses berulang-alik ipoh-KL untuk settlekan hal dgn MARA. masa ni MARA mmg byk kali menguji kesabaran students, tapi sebab diorg dah bagi pinjaman setengah juta, terpaksa la sabar ja. dah rasa distance from ipoh to KL mcm g jalan kaki g kedai runcit mamak depan rumah je time ni.

september

dah mula sibuk isi borang dan berulang-alik cari saksi sana sini. mak dah pening banyak duit habis beli barang2 nak fly sebab anak pompuan dy beli barang macam nak tinggal forever kat india hehehehe i love u mummehhh.

19hb Sept - first time naik flight. KL-Bangalore. yeah, 20 tahun hidup baru merasa naik kapal terbang. saya simpati dgn hidup saya sendiri.

bermulanya hidup baru as a dental student. =)

october

still adjusting to my life in Manipal. 3 minggu pertama tiap2 malam menangis air mata darah sebab rindu family. ni la first time belajar perasaan homesick tu macam mana.

tapi dah sebulan kat sini, dah tak sempat nak rasa homesick sebab bz mengalahkan PM. but i'm loving my life as a dental student. walaupun pilih course dentistry sebab terpaksa, tapi sekarang rasa macam tak menyesal pun amek sebab this course is super-fun minus the depressing parts laaa kan.

celebrated my first birthday here in india away from my family and bf. =( luckily friends were being nice and wonderful =D

dah mula sayang Manipal and rasa nak belajar kat sini lama-lama sebab makan kat sini memang heaven gila plus barang2 sangatla murah.

november

the first block exam. baru dok Manipal sebulan setengah tengok2 dah ada exam besar, terkesima kejap. alhamdullilah, results okay so far. hopefully dpt maintain throughout these 5 years.

experiencing many new things here in India which were very fun.

dah mula rindu makanan Malaysia. T__T

december

what??? december already?? next year dah 21???????

thanks to people who've been colouring and spicing up my 2010. much love. =)

smooches~

change

dulu suka berada dalam zon selamat.

macam kalau dah tau satu restoran ni roti telur dy sedap, maka setiap kali pergi kedai tu, wajib pesan roti telur. tak berani nak cuba menu lain sebab takut duit terbazir beli benda tak sedap.

rindu roti telur mamak.

jadinya tadi terfikir, rasa diri macam pengecut. rasa rugi. awak nampak (u see), dalam hidup ni ada banyak bende menarik. banyak sangat. tapi kenapa kita limitkan diri sendiri daripada merasai semua kemenarikan itu?

sebab kita sudah selesa begini?

sebab kita takut semua percubaan tak berbaloi?

sebab kita malas?

sebab kita takde geng nak buat?

sebab kita takde duit?

sebab takdir dah tentukan macamtu?

masa kecik2 dulu, saya dah bazirkan banyak peluang. sebagai seorang anak polis, saya diberi pelbagai keistimewaan untuk mempelajari pelbagai kemahiran diri seperti taek-kwan-do, karate, berenang, silat dan sebagainya dgn harga yang tersangatlaa rendah sebab kawan abah sendiri yang ajar.

tapi saya tolak semua tu sebab kelas2 itu diadakan pada waktu malam manakala kelas berenang pada hujung minggu.

semuanya sebab nak tgk kartun. sailormoon, dragon ball, arale, power rangers.

sudahnya, kini berasa menyesal sorg2 bila tgk adik sendiri dah pandai berenang. apa yang saya boleh buat dgn ilmu yg saya dapat drp kartun yg saya tgk masa malam dan weekend tu?

habuk pun tarak. hanya keseronokan sementara.

kalau saya pergi kelas karate atau berenang, sekurang-kurangnya saya dapat membantu orang dalam kesusahan satu hari nanti.

nampak pengajarannya di situ?

mari beranikan diri mencuba sesuatu yang baru.

smooches~

new addiction

sweet sangat!!

kalaulah mak izinkan kawen awal, rasa macam nak kawen skrg jugak.

smooches~

MD41

we never know what we have until they're all vanish right before our eyes.

dulu nak sangat cepat2 habis buat IB sebab rasa penat, rasa macam nak mati, rasa terbeban, rasa nak pengsan tengok IA berlambak2.

sebab nak cemerlang dalam study, lupa langsung pasal sukan, pasal aktiviti luar, pasal menikmati kehidupan, pasal mengexplore bende2 menarik, pasal mencuba bende2 baru.

tapi nasib baik ada kawan2 yang sanggup menarik kaki, mengejut sampai goncang2 badan, merayu-rayu, memujuk-mujuk untuk belajar menikmati kehidupan.

belajar menghargai masa yang anda ada sekarang. cuba buat benda baru. jangan berada di takuk selamat je.

saya rindu zaman di mana tiada keperluan untuk berfikir dengan lebih matang dalam berkata-kata. tapi haruslah belajar grow up drp sekarang.

smooches~

memang susah nak jaga hati semua orang. kadang2 kita sensitif, tapi terpaksa berlakon jadi tak sensitif. bila once kita luahkan semua apa yg terpendam dlm hati, kita rasa puas. tapi kita takut orang lain pulak yg terasa. kita nak dia tahu apa kita rasa. kita kawan dia. kita mahu lebih memahami. tapi takut nanti jadi lebih renggang pulak. jadi kita ambil langkah berdiam diri dan pendam semua. kemudian macam mana kita nak hadapi dia esok dan hari2 seterusnya? kadang2 rasa lemas bila tengok kawan kita dibuat orang, tapi lagi lemas bila kita tak mampu nak buat apa-apa untuk selamatkan dia. kita pun tak sebaik mana, jadi kita takut untuk bersuara lebih2, takut dianggap syok sendiri. tapi kawan kita ada, bagi kita kekuatan. bila kita sudah dapat kekuatan dan hidayah itu, ada ja dugaan lain yg datang drp org yang kita kasih. dan sekali lagi kita harus pilih; sama ada kita mahu hati kita puas atau kita lukakan hati orang lain. tapi kadang2 orang lain bersikap lebih terbuka drp apa yg kita sangka. kita je yang tak tahu. ada je yg boleh menerima. tapi kita tak pernah ambil tahu. kita ambil tahu golongan2 yg bising, yang tidak mahu menerima. kawan2 kita keluarga kita, dan seharusnya kita buat yang terbaik supaya tidak mengguris satu sama lain. kenapa mesti ada benda yg terjadi yg menyakitkan hati setiap kali kita baru sahaja selesai bersalaman, berpelukan. bila orang lukakan hati kita, kita lebih suka membalas dgn melukakan hati org itu kembali. lumrah manusia. kita semua begitu. hati sekarang runsing tgk kejadian depan mata. tak mahu jadi macamni lagi.

kita dekat, tapi kita jauh sebenarnya.

jiwa kacau. truly luahan hati.

smooches~

korean break

at last i have some new songs to headbang whenever i feel down and frustrated. thanks my chemical romance for the danger days album on their comeback.

red hair suits u fine, bebeh.

eventhough i think their new comical concept doesn't suit them well, whatmore with weird MVs for Na Na Na and Sing, they're still cool the way they were back during The Black Parade days.

my favourite songs from this album so far:

summertime

scarecrow

bulletproof heart

na na na

planetary

Gerard's voice is still the same. the emotional and shrieking voice. suka!

i'm still digging the album to seek for a full satisfaction, so i'm taking a break from all korean songs for this weekend.

smooches~

block 2

sama tak? pegang yg betul punya baru feel nak belajar!

tak sangka tengkorak kita ni ada banyak sangat foramen dan canal. ingatkan kerja dy pegang otak bagi dok diam2 ja.

buat masa sekarang saya sedang mencuba untuk menyemai dan memupuk minat yg mendalam kepada subjek prosthodontics dan dental materials.

semoga minggu depan tidak akan menjadi zombie dalam kelas prostho dan semoga otak dalam tengkorak saya dapat memahami apa yg diajar dalam dental materials.

smooches~

blissful moments

selama 13 belajar di sekolah + kolej di Malaysia, saya sudah dibiasakan dgn situasi cuti panjang setiap kali selesai exam kritikal. tapi sekarang kena biasakan diri dgn prinsip universiti saya yg mengamalkan konsep, ''ye kau dah habis exam penting, tapi ada aku kisah?''. tak ada cuti panjang untuk merilekskan diri dgn lebih lanjut selepas exam. sedih? SANGAT!

sedikit ulasan mengenai exam penting pertama saya di sini :

• tak susah tapi tak senang. tendency untuk careless dan hilang markah free amat tinggi.
• space antara row dlm kertas kajang sgtla luas, bajet tulisan saya mcm tulisan bapak gajah ke apa?
• kepakaran melukis amat diperlukan dlm menjawab soalan.
• dental anatomy punya essay paper mampu membuatkan tangan saya tercabut.
• 25 minit semasa anatomy spotters merupakan 25 minit terpantas dlm hidup saya. masa 1 minit untuk satu stesen memang menguji kemampuan untuk berfikir dan menulis dgn laju. 25 stesen di mana 21 stesen yg ada kepala, 2 stesen melihat cells under the microscope dan 2 stesen yg ada tengkorak seems to be endless.
• physiology paper memuaskan.
• biochemistry paper juga memuaskan.
• carving of maxillary central incisor kurang memuaskan. incisal ridge terlebih nipis dan akar gigi agak cacat. tangan menggeletar masa nak polish and lukis midline.
• semasa gap antara exam, saya hanya akan tido selepas 6 pagi dan bgun semula pukul 12 tengah hari. masa IB pun saya tak penah study segila mcm ni.

rasanya tu jelah. bila agaknya hidup saya akan bebas drp peperiksaan? *harapan*

sudah menjadi kewajipan bagi kami gadis BDS untuk mereward diri sendiri selepas mengalami sleepless night selama seminggu. ya, kami memang suka mereward diri sendiri walaupun untuk benda kecik sekalipun because we're young and we're enjoying our precious teenage life cewahhh!!

teenage lagi ke kami ni?

jadinya selepas hampir 3 bulan kami di sini, akhirnya kami telah menjejakkan kaki ke malpe beach. *clap hands* pantai dy biasa2 aja, cantik lagi pantai Malaysia. tapi yg bestnya mestila sesi photoshoot. kami juga menaiki boat untuk pergi ke pulau berhampiran. agak kecewa nama pulau tu sempena nama orang putih. St. Mary. bagila nama indian sikit.

bds itu ialah bachelor of dental science ya.

dulu masa trip ke langkawi naik boat lama2 pun tak kisah sebab its a very bumpy and fun ride terutama apabila boat melanggar ombak dan air terpercik-percik (?) ke muka. tapi tadi, oleh sebab kami BDS girls ada 18 orang n hanya menaiki satu boat, jadi boat itu amatlaa perlahan dan perjalanan ke pulau pula membosankan.

dah selesai bersuka ria di pantai, kami pergi berjoli duit di Temple Street, Udupi. ini merupakn kali pertama saya bershopping di Udupi jadinya paham2 jela nafsu tu mcmn kan. saya dh berjaya membeli 4 kurta yg cumel2 dlm 1000 rupee iaitu bersamaan dgn RM 70. hidup saya bahagia.

esok dah mula kelas seperti biasa. *lap airmata*

smooches~

sigh

as a muslimat, my knowledge level in ilmu agama and ukhrawi is very pathetic. but one thing i know, when u've done something that is clearly wrong di sisi agama,what more if the issue is mentioned in Holy Quran, it will always be wrong no matter how much u try to argue. just admit your mistake and take initiative to repent. don't simply boast about any principle that you've practice all this while without a concrete basis.

i also committed the same mistake, the same sin but i would never argue if anyone comes to me to correct me, even if he/she would use the rudest way to convey the message. because he/she is right and i am wrong.

don't say islam is simple just because you heard other people said so. its the people like you and me who made it complicated, but we are oblivious of it.

tiba2 rasa nak luahkan perasaan yg terpendam. this is supposed to be my reply to someone in tumblr, but i just don't have the strength to do so, so i posted it here.

smooches

exam syndrome

this is too pretty to be eaten.

i'm in the middle of my first block exam, got biochem paper tomorrow. so while memorizing all the types of carbohydrate i looked at this picture for inspiration.

psycho.

smooches~

suara

for the first time in my almost 2 months period of staying here in india, i managed to talk to all my family members on the phone. they're wishing me hari raya haji, maaf zahir batin, makan apa semua, all that stuff.

but the best thing is hijjaz's voice is still the same. the annoying mosquito voice that wished me samat hari raya. haha. and this is the first time i ever spoke to mursyid (my form 2 brother) on phone since i left Malaysia. being far away from each other makes me appreciate my siblings more. i even said to him if he were to score his final exam, i'm going to buy him anything that he desires. i'm a good sister like that.

well, hopefully mak doesn't cry tomorrow. because i'm the only daughter in the house, so usually i was the one who helped her with all the coooking, the membasuh n mengelap pinggan, the mengemas rumah and etc.

i miss home.

smooches~

i'm a malaysian, how about u?

i really miss roti canai. luckily we have nasi lemak and teh tarik here.

smooches~

hellish week

minggu ni baru dapat the real wake-up call yg saya sekarang sedang membuat degree dalam course dentistry, bukan course yang simple2 sampai kau boleh goyang kaki tiap2 petang tgk cerita korea.

setiap hari dlm minggu ni tak lengkap tanpa test atau viva. masa hari ahad last week dlm pala otak asek fikir mcmn saya nak survive minggu ni. tapi akhirnya survive jugak. still bernafas walaupun agak semput skrg sebab baru main netball tadi.

viva anatomy agak hampeh. rasa bodoh gila sebab taktau parietal eminence tu apa. hypoglossal nerve pun taktau mcmn rupa. dah berselirat nerve2 kat tengkuk cadaver tu, mmg takla kan bagi seorang manusia yg suka tido masa kelas dissection mcm saya ni nak detect each and every nerve yang ada kat kepala manusia.

yes, baru sebulan stgh kat sini tapi dah kene hapai segala nerve and blood supply kat kepala. tu belum tgk budak yg amek medic lagi.

rasa macam nak meninggal.

satu benda saya belajar kat sini, bila menjawab viva, haruslah level confidence meng-exceed 100%. sebab lecturers mmg suka bermain dgn emosi dgn membuat facial expression menggunakan muscle procerus dan corrugator supercilli lalu membuatkan saya teragak-agak dgn jawapan sendiri walaupun dah konfem betul.

haruslah yakin dgn jawapan sendiri kan. nnt dah jadi dentist takkan nak teragak-agak depan patient.

kat sini, perbuatan membaca notes sambil berjalan dan hanya memakan megi semasa lunch, juga sambil membaca notes adalah perkara biasa.

test dental materials pulak oklaaa, not bad. sistem di sini yg mengamalkan jika anda betul, dpt 1 markah, tp jika anda salah, kena tolak 0.5 markah memang memguji keupayaaan mental untuk membuatkan keputusan dgn betul.

test dental anatomy sgtla confusing. sekali jawab rasa mcm confident, tapi bila cek balik mcm ade je salah. tapi tak berani nak tukar jawapan sebab my history dgn MCQs question ni kan, setiap kali saya tukar jawapan, konpem salah. pastu mulela tak tido malam sebab menyesal tukar jawapn last minute. so dah byk kali remind diri sendiri jgn tukar jawapan. tapi aritu taktau apsal bengong sgt p tukar jugak. huu.

tapi saya suka sebenarnya test banyak2 ni. sgt membantu semasa final exam nnt. setiap bende yg lecturer plan untuk kita, semuanya untuk kebaikan kita jugak, bukan untuk meyeksa kita. =)

smooches~

rasanya lah

rasanya lah, saya tidak akan memilih prosthodontics sebagai cabang yang ingin saya tempuhi selepas saya tamat membuat degree nanti.

rasa bangga pulak bila dah boleh cakap "wey, aku tgh buat degree ni" =_='

sudahla lecture prostho sering membuat saya menguap dan mengantuk tahap dewa, ditambah dgn kefahaman yang masih tidak hadir di dalam hati (?) walaupun lecturer mengajar bagai nak rak.

seriusly, saya rasa seperti tidak mendapat apa2 input pun sepanjang lecture berlangsung. hanya memandang slides dengan mata hati yang kosong.

kekecewaan ditambah semasa praktikal prostho berlangsung di mana kami disuruh membuat negative replica of die. die di sini bukan bermaksud pergi mati, sebaliknya die ialah suatu postive replica of your oral cavity. atau bahasa mudah die itu merupakan suatu subjek yg menyerupai bahagian2 dlm oral cavity anda. mudah bukan?

apa maksud oral cavity dalam bahasa melayu? ruang mulutkah? =_=' sedih cikgu azizah kalau dy tau bekas anak murid dy dah cacat bahasa ibunda.

kami perlu menekan suatu material bernama impression compound yang sgt keras tapi bila celup dalam air panas, jadi lembik. characteristic ini dinamakan thermoplastic. saya mengerah sepenuh tenaga untuk mem-press die bersama impression compound. bila bukak, rasa macam dah cun, hati pun kembang kuncup bawak p jumpa lecturer.

percaya tak, beginilah rupa oral cavity anda di bahagian maxillary yakni bahagian yg ada lelangit tu.

berkecai hati bila lecturer cakap ''nothing is recorded". ini bermaksud impression compound saya tak ada secubit pun rupa seperti oral cavity. maksudnya tenaga zahir yg saya kerahkan masih belum mampu untuk manjadikan impression compound yg berkaler coklat itu betul2 menyerupai oral cavity seorang manusia.

kalau sekali tak apa, ini sudah 537435238 kali lecturer cakap begitu. okay, exaggerated gila babeng.

jadi sepanjang 3 jam praktikal itu, hidup saya dipenuhi moment2 menyeksakan di mana tangan sudah menjadi kasar dan numb. tenaga juga sudah kehabisan sehingga saya terpaksa meminta pertolongan classmate untuk mencabut die itu drp compound budus itu. sungguh menguji kesabaran.

tambah hampa apabila rakan2 di sekeliling sudah di-approved oleh lecturer, dan mereka sudah boleh proceed dgn upacara mengikis saki-baki compund itu. tapi saya masih di situ, di ceruk yg sama, menekan-nekan die di atas impression compound, dgn mata merah air mata hampir berlinang. tapi masih mampu control macho.

sungguh, bidang ini perlukan azam dan determination yang sangat kuat. putus asa tidak harus ada dalam kamus hidup.

smooches~

bidan terjun

ironic. benda pertama yg ada dlm kepala bila diri tiba2 baik hati nak join main futsal sebagai wakil kelas dlm interbatch competition. dulu masa kat mrsm n kolej, fanarosli dikenali sebagai orang paling malas riadah, hanya tahu tido masa riadah, dan paling malas berjalan kaki untuk pergi ke mana2. pasar malam ampangan pun tak rela nak pergi. 2 tahun kat kolej adela dalam 2 kali pernah pergi jogging kat lake garden seremban. tu pun sebab lepas tu nak p brakfast kat bistro n teman mcdee usha mamak bistro tu. hoho.

tapi bukan di sini, tidak di manipal. di sini fanarosli menjadi active semacam pasal apa, i'm not sure. yang sebenarnye, aku sangat rindu nak main netball, basketball and handball yg satu mase dulu pernah menjadi kegemaran aku. aku jugak rindu nak masuk acara balapan such as sprint 100m n 200m, tak dilupa acara lompat kijang yg merupakan kepakaran n menggenggam trofi olahragawati sekolah. sumpah rindu. dan 4 tahun di mrsm n kolej telah disia-siakan begitu saja sampai badan jadi lembap n unfit, lelah datang macam tak menyempat2. sedih.

sebab tu kat sini macam sukarela nak join futsal bila miyn mintak ganti kappa masuk futsal walaupun pada mulenye sgtla berat hati ni nak turun pektis. lagipun takde basic futsal. sepak bola macam setahun sekali je kot. tengok bola memang taklaa kan. tapi berpaksikan prinsip kelas kami, ''kita main just for fun, so enjoy the game" (prinsip orang yg confirm kalah, =P) so aku pun turunla main. and it turned out very fun!! masa mula2 pektis penat gila sebab asek gelak, menjerit2, pastu lagi banyak lari kutip bola from sepak bola, tapi lastly kitorg dpt jugakla main dgn penuh gaya. =P

bak kata miyn, kamilah pasukan (bidan terjun) futsal BDS

isma (striker), aien (striker), najaa (goalkeeper), me (center, ade ke position center dlm futsal? ahh p mampuih), miyn (defender)

takleh blah nak jugak tulis posisi masing2, gaya mcm pro je. teehee.

walaupun tak dapat score satu gol pun, n kalah dalam semua games, tapi kami tetap happy. happy sebab dapat experience baru, happy sebab main takde nak tarik tudung, happy sebab main dgn aman (?), happy sebab walaupun main cam hampeh, tapi gol takdela bolos banyak kali, maksimum bolos 2 kali je =) and happy sebab kawan2 sudi turun bagi semangat even kitorg main macam noob tahap dewa. =)

muka happy walaupun terpaksa main dlm panas terik dan kalah kpd team 27

malam tu pulak kena substitue senior main netball. mule2 mcm serba-salah nak main sebab kaki dah injured masa main futsal. ade pendarahan di bawah kuku atau pun bahasa medicnya kita panggil nail bed. sakit dy toksah nak cakap, asal tersepak benda je, confirm meraung satu bilik. sembahyang pun kena duduk. sobss. tapi sebab rinduu sgt nak main netball, aku main jugak. p mampuihlaa kaki tu nak sakit ke apa.

coach suruh celup kaki dlm ais masa injured, sejuknya tuhan saja yg tahu.

kau tgk muke kappa, macam suka je aku injured.

the azab came the next day. pendarahan (bunyi mcm sgt kritikal,, haha) bawah kuku jadi lagi teruk and bertukat menjadi kehitaman. huu. pengumpulan lactic acid due to excessive anaerobic respiration of muscle fibres dan oxygen debt yang masih belum dilangsaikan menjadikan kaki mengalami muscle cramps yg sgt dasat up to the point where i couldn't even raise my leg. sakit gila, jalan pun hinjut2 mcm OKU. nampak sgt my myoglobin amount dlm skeletal muscle masih tak mampu untuk meng-supply enough oxygen for the rapid contraction of muscles masa aku lari2 macam org sawan atas padang simen futsal. ok sila tampar aku skrg for being nerd.

jadi konklusinya aku mahu menjadi aktif di sini. tiada lagi sluggish lifestyle di mana tido dan rehat menjadi prioriti utama. doakan aku berjaya, kawan. zaaaassss!! *hilang tiba-tiba dgn efek asap*

smooches~

20th birthday

28th October 2010 marked my 20th birthday and this is the first time i celebrated my birthday away from malaysia. hoho bangga sekejap. it took me 20 freaking years to finally stepped my (currently) highly sensitive, severely infected and injured feet on other country. kesian, i know.

well, celebrating my birthday here was still fun as i'm still surrounded by the same circle of close friends and friends from my college. i was throwned 2 suprise birthday parties along with 2 birthday cakes. terharu i sebab dah lama org tak beli kek besar2 for my birthday. selalu dpt 1 slice cake je sobss sobss.

mula2 sekali dapat kezutan from kak ummu, my kakak usrah. wuu sumpah malu+terharu masa org nyanyi lagu happy birthday kat tgh2 foodcourt. anyway, thanks a lot kak ummu! =)

next, dapat unexpected 2 slices of cake from hazman. thanks hazman! =)

the next day, my classmates and others friends membuat kezutan yg hampir gagal kat foodcourt jugak. comel sgt tgk diorg susah-payah plan suprise birtday party for me. i'm touched =) i love u guyz to bits and pieces.

bertuah punya kawan2 tulis birtday wish in hindi? tamil? kannhada?

thanks so much also to myrajemi and kappa mamma nim for the nan cheese treat at dollop. hehee.

i don't have any particular wish for this year's birthday, it just that i hope that me and my friends will do well here in india and melaka in future, finishing our 5 years of dentistry course with flying colours. also praying hard to Allah everyday semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan dan perjalanan hidup sebagai seorang pelajar dentistry.

smooches~

taman hitam

bila mau buat comeback??

smooches~

sapa kata dentistry senang?

who said dentistry is easy as compared to medicine course?

we have to endure the same pain, the same agony, in fact a more severe suffering as our course does not only requires memorizing, but also a lot of artistic talents and manipulations as i've said before.

we have to paint,

we also have to convert these wax blocks

into these *nicely* carved maxillary central and lateral incisors a.k.a your right and left gigi kapak and also gigi sebelah gigi kapak. =_=''

seriously, its not easy.

and this is one of the risk of choosing dentistry as your future career. my friend's finger got cut when she's using the plaster knife during prosthodontics practicals. pity her =(

so pls, don't underestimate this course although i firmly know that dentists will not be saved and given special priorities during earthquake because yeah, who needs a dentist during an earthquake? everyone will be begging for a doctor to save their life.

don't ever said that we're just a bunch of losers who couldn't make it to the MBBS course. memang nak kena pelempang sebijik.

but do u know, sakit gigi is given the second place in the top three list of the most excruciating pain one can ever experience?

smooches~

introducing my new place

pictures stolen from myra azmi and najaa basir's facebook.

pictures berterabur, tak ikut order.

drive slowly or u'll be dead / drive dead slow, man!

view from my apartment

my expensive apartment

me and farah in front of the apartment

at mangalore, eating expensive western food once in a very while

our first trip to mangalore

my class is at the basement of the below building

manipal's main building, nampak cantik credits to myra

the food court, filled with delicious and cheap food

there's this one shopping mall at mangalore that has cartoon drawings all over its wall. teringat kat cartoon kampung boy tiba2.

when i have my own camera, i'll introduce to u guyz many interesting things here in india. =)

smooches~

new life

hai semua! sebenarnye ade banyak gile bende nak crite pasal hidup kat india ni tapi mcm malas gila plus banyak sgt kena study tapi masa untuk tgk cter korea masih ada =P

1. of my university

or should i say, college? sebab nama penuh dy melaka-manipal medical college. i'm doing a twinning project by the manipal university whereby i need to do my first 2 years here in manipal and the subsequent 3 years back in melaka. i'm doing dentistry despite my university only got 'medical' on its name.

2. of my classes and studies

lecturers here are nice but their english slang are quite menghiburkan. at least terbukak jugakla biji mata dalam kelas kan. and we're seated in the lecture hall and labs according to our roll number (ID number). tadika aku pun tak buat mcmni dulu. at first i was among the sad backbenchers but now dah tukar class, so dpt seat tgh. suka2!

i'm taking 6 subjects which are dental anatomy and histology, dental materials, preclinical prosthodontics, anatomy, biochemistry and physiology. i'm fonder towards the dental subjects as compared to anatomy. head and neck anatomy is fine but not general anatomy. since my class has embarked a month ago, i've never study any bit of biochemistry and physiology because dental anatomy and anatomy are both a very time-consuming subjects what more with tests ans viva every week.

the practical classes are fun yet they made me suffered due to my lowly art talents that have been buried deep down beneath the earth since my primary school. carving, painting, polishing and etc really got on my nerves sometimes but at the same time i enjoyed doing all those artistic thingy.

3. of food

food here are awesome, delicious and cheap! i guess this is the advantage of living here. kat malaysia mana nk dpt makan sehari complete from breakfast to dinner tak sampai 10 ringgit. eventho bgnan2 n kedai2 kat sini mmg buruk, tapi food dy memang wallah!!

4. of homesick and tearful days

during my first2 weeks here in manipal, i cried almost everyday whenever i miss my family, especially hijjaz. at that time, i wish time will fly really fast so that i can go back to malaysia as soon as possible. but now, i don't feel like that anymore. with my great friends here, i wish to explore more of india sebab yelah kan, pasni bila lagi nk stg sini. fyi, i'm not going back this february instead i wanna go travel all over india with my friends.

5. of tuk-tuk

dulu hanya boleh tgk dlm cter hindustan tapi sekarang dh boleh merasa naik sendiri tuk-tuk ni. mula2 naik mcm excited gilaa tapi lama2 jadi takut sebab seriously, naik tuk-tuk kat sini mcm a suicidal attempt. tapi memang murahh sgt2 naik tuk-tuk ni. diorg selambe je redah jalan tak tgk kiri kanan even ade lori besar tgh lalu time tu. mmg dh byk kali menjerit2 tp driver dy buat bodo je.

oklah, dah taktau nak cter ape. lain kali sambung lagi. babai!

smooches~

my parents

happy birthday to mak and abah!!!

fyi, their birthday are of the same date; 13th October. tahun je lain.

your daughter here is missing both of u there in Malaysia.

smooches~

rindu

rindu sangat kat budak gemok ini yang tak pernah mengaku dy rindu kat saya padahal saya tahu dy rindu saya sebab haritu dy cakap kat mak saya "adik rindu kak long laa". sedih tapi tak nak nangis.

smooches~

bagada

hai ppl. this post is for u all to know and learn a pure indian cuisine which is scrumptious enough to make me (not you) drool whenever i think about it.

well, what i'm holding in the picture above is not a plain ikan goreng, its a bagada. don't ask me the meaning of it, i don't know. one thing i certain about bagada is that it was so delicious that i can ratah it sampai menghisap tulang ikan-apa-tah tu. over right?

thats all for now.

smooches~

myrajemi

zaman braces myrajemi

zaman braces-less myrajemi

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELIEST FRIEND MYRA INNESSA AZMI!!

STAY HOT STAY NICE STAY BLUR STAY SMART

as i said before, i lap u more than i lap bagada.

sorry yang, no pressie, no fireworks (?), no big celebration, but your friends are always with u to celebrate it anytime, anywhere when we're free from all those wax carvings, paintings, viva-ing, remembering all the intricate terms etc this weekend. =)

what is a bagada? mantap weh rasa dy. mcm ikan kukus. *iklan*

smooches~

i wanna go home

rindu gila rumah, family, and semua2 laaaaaa. dah dpt sesuaikan diri, but still takleh nak hilangkan rasa homesick tu. mcm loser gila. i'm such a weakling. sobsobs.

classes were okay, lecturers were nice, things were like super duper cheap here, food was okay, water also okay, friends were fantastic, apartment was awesome except that its very expensive, auto (tuk-tuk) was a very fun yet suicidal ride.

what else?

i wanna go home but i must be strong.

smooches~

cliche

penat weh jawab soalan "apa perasaan nak fly g india ni?"



satu. cuak sebab first time naik kapal terbang. MAS lagi tu. terima kasih MARA. MARA is the best!

dua. sedih sebab lepas ni dah mula balik lifestyle bangun awal2 pagi, tido lewat2 malam sebab stay up depan buku tebal.

tiga. gembira sebab akhirnya dapat menjejakkan kaki ke tanah negara lain. even singapore and sempadan siam pun aku tak penah sampai lagi. blame abah.

empat. risau sebab takut tak dapat sesuaikan diri dgn gaya hidup (makan, hygiene, cuaca) di sana.

lima. excited sebab tak sabar nak start degree. saya rindu buku2 tebal dan segala proses penghafalan yang membunuh axons dan dendrites.










enam. tolong jangan tanya aku apa perasaan nak berpisah ngan family and bf. aku makan korang nanti.

smooches~

raya 2010

this is the first time my family didn't went back to our kampung to celebrate raya. nasib bek mak tak menangis HAHA. well, raya in our very own house was not that bad after all. we still had fun and never fail to stuff our bloated tummies with manyyyyyyyyyy delicious foods that u can only found during raya.


abah dgn lemang kebanggaannya. first time masak lemang sendiri katakan.


hari last puasa ialah hari jadi my baby bro, hijjaz!!

cerita apa pulak kat tv belakang tu?

harusla gembira dpt duit raya even umur dah 20 =D

adakah anda perasan sesuatu pada gambar di atas?


ya? tidak?






yaaaaa. baju saya ngan mak saya sama sebijik cuma saiz dan tudung je yg lain. =P

my brownish family =)) kau tgk hijjaz mmg spoiler habis.

masa g raya rumah jiran2 semua org ingat saya anak second. nmpak sgt i kecik and muda. heheeeee. btw, saya sudah reti pakai shawl dgn jayanyaaa!!! clap clap clap.

smooches~

org yg tak suka korean stuffs, don't bother

well, dh warning awal2 kan. reason is, saya ter-came across this one blog yg mengutuk habis-habisanla kami si peminat2 korean entertainment industry ni. kata diorg plastiklah, jambulah, out of fashionlah, suara tak sedaplah, menari poyola, pakai glove sebelah je mcm org retarded lah.

WELL KAU LOSER, SEMUA ORANG ADA TASTE MASING2 AKU TAK BISING PUN BILA KAU MEROYAN DGN BENDE YG KAU MINAT.

pahamla wey, tak semua org suka bende yg sama.

mcm aku penah promote kat mcdee so that dy minat suju tapi tuptup dy g minat ss501 la pulak kan. and dy pun hari2 menyanyi lagu justin bieber dlm bilik buat show percuma tp aku sampai skrg tak minat satu pun lagu jutsin bieber. tapi kitorg cool je, sebab pahamla kan taste masing2 lain.

even aku minat gila bab kat korean stuffs aku still tgk How I Met Your Mother, aku still tau vampire diaries season 2 released kelmarin, aku still tau main cast Big Bang Theory menang anugerah pelakon komedi lelaki terbaik, aku still layan lagu I Love The Way U Lie, aku still gugu-gagaing over Josh Duhamel and Faizal Tahir, SO KAU JGN NAK CAKAP AKU TAKDE LIFE.

current playlist.

lee seung hee - fox rain (ost my gf is a nine-tailed fox)
lee seong chol - geu saram (ost king of baker, kim tak goo)
t-ara - like the first time (lagu lama)
narsha - mamma mia
super junior - no other
dbsk - mirotic (say whatever, mmg aku lambat)
super junior - coagulation

smooches~

on the list

weekly k-dramas on the list that have to be streamed online for days due to the super slow internet connection, screw celcom line in my housing area. got only 2-3 bars. not good enough/

- king of baker kim tak goo , 5 more episodes to end
- my girlfriend is a nine-tailed fox, 8 more episodes to end
- playful kiss - haven't started yet
- jewel in the palace - re-watch because its my all-time fav k-drama. 70 episodes to be streamed. *dies

i have an awesome raya albeit i didn't go back to my kampung.

smooches~

eid mubarak

gelak2=gilak2 ingin mengucapkan

selamat hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua umat islam di seluruh dunia

dan selamat bercuti kepada warga malaysia.

dgn tulus ikhlas meminta maaf sekiranya kalian ada terguris hati dgn tulisan2 di laman ini.

salam~

angka 11

i found this from here and decided to share it with everyone. it's a nice blog btw, banyak info islam and info2 lain yg menarik.

The Secret behind the number 11 - Pretty Chilling
Read to the bottom. Try it out. I did and I got goose bumps
If you are a sceptical person - still read on as it's actually very interesting! !

This is actually really freaky!! (Mainly the end part, but read it first)
1) New York City has 11 letters
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb has 11 letters. (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993)
4) George W Bush has 11 letters.


This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets interesting:
1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers , was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 =11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11

Sheer coincidence. .?! Read on and make
up your own mind:
1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254.
2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year.
Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognized symbol for the US , after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Koran, the Islamic holy book:

"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The
wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah while some
of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the
Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace."

That verse is number 9.11 of the Koran.
Unconvinced about all of this Still ..?!

Try this and see how you feel afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:
1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers .
2. Highlight the Q33 NY.
3. Change the font size to 48.
4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS 1
What do you think now?!!

smooches~

kami perlukan seorg yg terer masak

jumaat lepas saya pergi ke KL (again) untuk mengambek visa yg rupe-rupenye hanyelah sehelai sticker buruk yg berharga rm285.00. tak apa, nnt boleh claim mara. mara akan pulangkan duit abah saya lebih kurang dlm emmm......6 bulan?

masa beli tiket utk ke KL, saya lupa KL adalah tempat maharaja jalan jem. jadinya bas yg sepatutnya sampai di bukit jalil jam 4.30 menjadi 5.40 ptg sebab jalan jem. semua pun nak balik kampung, jadi tak boleh merungut lebih2. kita kena faham keterujaan org yg mahu pulang ke desa tercinta.

dalam bas hati berdenyut2 (?) berdoa supaya kitorg (saya, aien, ping) sempat tiba di visa centre di masjid jamek sebelum 6.30 ptg. sampai saja bukit jalil, terus bergegas naik lrt, jalan laju2 meredah org yg sibuk shopping kat masjid jamek sambil buat muke garang so that orang bagi laluan luas2. hehe.sampai2 sana tgk kat pintu dah ada sign 'closed' tapi kitorg masuk jugak ah tak kira datang dari jauh kot. pastu ade sorg miss ni buat muka garang and tak puas hati ahh aku tak kisah aku nak visa aku jugak. nasib baik dy baik hati, dy bagi jugak visa kitorg. lepas kitorg keluar je, terus dy tutup lampu, kunci pintu mangga lock semua. perli ke apa? takpa, asalkan dpt jugak amek visa. phew.

lepas tu kelam kabut solat kat masjid kecik ikut skala najaa basir yg pada skala kami amatlah besar jugak sebenarnya. kemudian kalut2 pegi mcD tgk2 tempat full tapi nak jugak mkn spicy ciken mcDeluxe tu so beratur panjang2 pun i sanggup. sudahnya kitorg berbuka kat kaki lima, duduk berderet kat depan RHB bank mcm pengemis tp pengemis yg style punya la. takde comot momot punya. nasib baik takde lagu raya berkumandang, kalau tak mesti dah menitis air mata.

lepas tu naurah amek kitorg, dan kami semua bergerak ke rumah syasya di sungai buloh yg sangat besarrrr dan lawaaa. mmg jaw dropping lah tgk rumah dy. lepas dah puas masuk setiap bilik, usha sana, usha sini, jakun merata-rata, kitorg g mandi kat swimming pool! huuyeeahh best sgt! usik2 kappa mcm nak rak hahahahaha ksian kappa yg cumel.

malam tu takde sape nak masak jadi ramai2 memenuhi dapur yg malap dan gelap untuk masak roti telur and nasi goreng. aien and ping buat roti telur, sedapppp!!! nasi goreng, errrr, sedapla jugak tu pun pakai perencah. asalkan ada rasa. hahaha first time masak nasi goreng sama2. sebelum ni asek msk spagetii ja. lepas sahur kul 2.30 pagi, ade sesi luahan perasaan tak puas hati terhadap mara. tp takleh bising2, nnt mara tarik balik scholarship.

our first nasi goreng cina. nampak sedap kan? KAN????

esoknya g manipal di mana hanya menghabiskan duit minyak dan tol syasya dan naurah. memang tak patut manipal wajibkan kehadiran. jauh2 kitorg datang, dy cakap psl bende yg kitorg dah tau lama dah. hmmph sgt sakit hati. pastu kene paksa buat survey bodo saya biar kosong je part soalan 'why medicine'. aku dah bosan jawab soalan tu tau tak!

petang tu kitorg pegi ke bukit bintang, jalan2 kat sungei wang and pavilion. ramaiii sgt org kat pavi ingatkan semua org pun kaya nk shopping kat sana rupa-rupanya ade signature session dgn artis. ada faizal tahir (woot woot!!!) , stacy, aril, akim, mawi, shila, syahir, fara fauzana, black, TOMOK (aien sungguh gembiraaa dy pegi depan sekali semata2 nak amek gambar hoho).

hai black, abah saya minat sgt dgn lagu sofea jane. btw, awak tak hitam sgt pun.

tomok main pejam-celik mata khas untuk aien. =P

faizal tahir yg dah hitam, baru balik dari palestin. bravo =)

dah, malas nak cerita lagi. selasa ni nak pegi KL. (again)

p/s: thanks so much to naurah and syasya!!

smooches~