insult

i bet everyone knows how does it feels to be insulted either intentionally or unintentionally. sometimes i would put the 'i-don't-care' act whenever i sensed someone was insulting me. but there's also times when i took an insult heavily. i pondered about the real message the person wanted to convey to me and i tend to dwell on it for a quite long period of time. what more if the insult came from your friends. sometimes you're confused whether he/she was joking or dead serious regarding what they're talking about because somehow you can't tell it from their facial expression. as for me, whenever i was insulted directly or indirectly, i felt guilty for the excruciating heartache that i had in my heart because i also have tendency to insult people and to make it worst, sometimes i insult people on purpose. so i thought i don't have the right to feel insulted because i also insult people around me. sigh.