Wednesday, February 11, 2009

our intricate heart

we always heard the phrase 'only u know ur heart well'. eventho u said that u hate this, u like that, but only u know whats has really been in ur mind n u never tell anyone bout it coz u obliviously always wanted some privacy for urself.

the same thing goes to me.

*situation 1

u know, eventho i always said, mumbled, screamed, uttered, muttered that i hate MATH so much, but actually deep in my heart in hearts i always love the subject and looking forward for it. yes, i am very slow in math, but when i really understand the concepts and able to answer the Qs correctly, it gives me an undescribable satisfaction. i feel great n i can sleep with a wide smile plastered on my face.

but u also know, math is not an easy ubject. well, at least it is not for me. when u met this really2 tough question which even madihah cannot answer it, it spoils everything. then u start to curse on the subject, especially to the Q that u failed to answer. its normal. but as i mentioned above, despite all the curses that u vomitted, u still have this spirit in u to keep on trying. ppl might think that u hav already gave up, but only ur heart knows urself.

*situation 2

this happens when u got a new ferocious and serious chemistry teacher in ur class. a teacher with a not-student-friendly face and voice tone. negative talk is rife among ur friends n u joined them, giving ur fake opinions and notions. while ur mouth excitedly said bad things about her, ur heart murmured sumthing else.

im talking about myself.

i admit the fact that the teacher always underestimate us n fear us with her high tone when we've said/done sumthing wrong, but i enjoy it. seriously. with her behaving like that, i have no time to daydream and able to concentrate myself 100% to her teaching. her very2 high-pitching thunderous voice can effectively kill my sleepiness during the peak tym of the day. also her cold response towards the boys when they cracked jokes made us burst into silent laughter. to see my clasmates facial expression everytym she screwed us up especially naurah,it is truly hilarous. its like i was being entertained.



i know each of us is not the same, for my heart is exactly not the same as ur heart. but im pretty sure that everyone hav their own private opinions about something/sumone n they never spill the beans to anyone, including their most trusted frens.

im just expressing my opinions here. condemning is prohibited. haha. kidding2.

smooches~

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